Oh dear. I'm sorry that happend last night. I had panic attacks before too. And there are not good at all. I hope you alright now. All I could say is to stay strong, be positive and move forword. Also you know if u need to a friend to talk you could try to reach me.

o_o when did this happen man? tell me next time man

but i know what you mean on panic attacks

but you know what you are pretty damn strong if i do say so myself especially with everything that has happened in the last year.

dont ever doubt yourself.

Everybody has these feelings one time or another where they do not feel like they are living up to the bar they have set for themselves. But remember this Scruff you are a human being just like the rest of us here. And we all have our shortfalls. There have been times that I have felt like I was knocked on my ass too and this is where having good friends helps. Good friends will support and help you in anyway they can in return for the things you do for them. Granted I don't have the heart condition that you have to deal with. But I've had enough of my fair share of medical issues to have an idea of what its like. Considering what conditions you have and the hardships you have to face, I do have allot of respect for you esp. when it comes to the fact that you yarn to be there for others and maintain a fun upbeat personality. In short, you are one very strong person, and the talk we had on SL last night, I've come admire your determination to remain true to yourself. Just remember when the path you walk becomes difficult you have good friends that will offer support for you. Stay strong and stay happy.