The title says it all. Saturday night I got drunk and told the sweetest guy in the world how much I hate him, all cause I can't cope with how much I like him. I'm actually so disgusted in myself its unreal.
Due to this mental breakdown of mine I've deactivated my Facebook account for a but, I know a few of you here are friends there and if you wondered where I've gone, I'm currently in self imposed banishment. I just can't face talking to anyone at the moment.

I know people will be all shuddap an stop baaaawwwing but I really don't expect sympathy from this, I don't like being a nasty person and the fact I hurt the one person who's been the only bright spark in my life at the moment is a constant source of shame and anger.
Worst part is there may have been a chance he liked me before all this, now I've gone an blown it.

Anyway rant over, just letting y'all who are important know the score.