You normally make resolutions about yourself during the beginning of the year. Well, I've been doing a lot of thinking and now, which oddly happened to be on the 4th, I'm wanting to make some changes to my lifestyle.

This year alone has been a whirlwind for me. Looking for a career, finding love, losing love, taking personal stock in my friends and getting my own finances in order, its been like I'm slowly becoming the adult I want to be. Yet, up until now, one of the biggest things in my life I had every opportunity to control, I never made a change for and its been something that has affecting my self esteem and confidence for a long while.

I'm slowly realizing that I just don't want to be comfortable with just myself internally, but I also want to be comfortable with how I look on the outside as well.

I feel we each create our fursonas to manifest our ideal selves, who and what we'd like to be. But I've realized I'm just not happy with PRETENDING to be who my fursona is, I want to BE who my fursona is. I feel that everyone out there eventually would love their fursona and actual self to synchornize perfectly. To those who have done it, I applaud you for becoming what you have always truly wanted to be.

I've always wanted to go into bodybuilding, its been a big goal of mine to be happy and comfortable with how I look inside and out. Just seeing how much I have accomplished in life so far by working at it, has made me realize this goal isn't as far fetched as I had recently thought.

I'll be posting weekly updates on how I'm doing, and hopefully, find support in this community.

I don't even really know why I am even making a journal about this, I guess because every little bit of support helps I guess, and I feel like there are people I may not even talk to much that can offer come encouragement.

Anyway, thanks for reading guys, its greatly appreciated.
xoxo
twnkl