I don't care if this is a plea or me being a drama bitch, then again I'm a bit sorry. But ever since this break up I'm more broken and just.. want to kill myself. And not having a way to drive or anything like that and I've finally hit that emotional brick wall. If that damn kitsune is loving this break up I hope he burns emotionally and such.
I've just.. I don't know how long I'll stand up like this anymore, taking all of that in person was a bad choice for him, cuz I don't know how much I can take this pain anymore. I actually don't know if I can live another day like this in barely any happiness when I'm now still living in emotional pain and shear confusion.

Will I ever find a guy that won't play me for a fool or badly as a rag doll, being tossed around with thoughts of the future to later on find out that all of it was a false romance. Or I should just give up for a few years and forever be single tormented by the fact.

I just don't know anymore, sometimes I just feel like all of this bad luck was put onto me by purpose or I have to deal with a hidden punisment, either way if I'm doomed forever to roam around with a dream of having a family but never to have a good man then let it be then...