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Just unwatch me if you don't like me you jerk....
12 years ago
Well, looks like someone unfollowed me on here and now starting up shit that personally I'm not happy about. To whom reads this take note that a CERTAIN someone is starting up shit about me cause of one badge COM, ya sure I don't have it done yet but I suffer still from my depression and even after MFF which was kinda hard on me afterwards cause I broke down crying I wanted to at least get stuff for my own cause well, that's what I like to do and show close friends and family what I got this year at cons.
Plus don't be bitching about 'oh I didn't help cover for the room, food, gas etc etc' when for:
1) You said that you covered everything and all I needed to pay her back was for the entrance badge which you (referring to that certain someone) me and my mom agreed that I would pay her back when we came back up, even my mom out of her heart gave her an extra 10 bucks for both of ya'z back home for extra gas money.
2) you said that you had the room covered and invited me at a late notice if someone didn't reply to you about being down there, sure enough that happened and I felt like you were at least repaying me back from those months that I let you stay in me house out of the goodness of my heart, HE still owes me his share of the rent (barely only payed twice out of the 8 months he lived with me) But did I hound him about that. No, cause I thought he was at least returning a bit of the favor but I guess I was wrong about that he did it just cause.
3) He only paid for one alcohol drink THAT he said that I could get before we head down out of his kindness or whatever, he's treating it like I over spend his money on booze alone...
4) Really all of this just for one badge COM and those refs were more like requests that now I'm starting to maybe decline cause of his dick move. Ya I know I'm a sloppy commissioner atm cause of my bloody depression and I can't do nothing cause people doubt me thinking that I'm lying about my depression, seriously at points in my depression not even working on art would cheer me up its that bad. I can't do nothing esp during the winter time cause I don't have any means to get out on my own leisure... Thus an un- happy artist means slow ass work, its to the point that I'm fighting myself to still be an artist cause after MFF I'm doubting myself hard and I'm fucking up my own mentality. I don't want to do that... I maybe slow but I will get it done once I feel happy about myself.
5) About that food, I only snatched one slice of that one pizza order cause the zoo or where ever that they cater food for the con goers (which he told me about and is now bitching up a storm a little) wasn't open yet or so and I was near desperate hungry to start myself thus carry myself till it did open. The only one that paid for pizza out of his good heart to cater not only me but also you and everyone for that one room party was my new friend Chibi Splash. Don't you dare think that he didn't and you paid for everything and he didn't.
6) I AM STILL WAITING contacts to do that ref art but I need info from her to make her official fursona ref sheet, my skype is fucked up from my computer, which again is fighting to still work for me still until its fixed again. Until that time you should of noted me on here or on furaffinity with all she would requested of her fursona, again wasted move and words when you should of been a bit smart about this. I'm greatful that she let me use her laptop despite my quota that I hoped for via COM cash and I did say to her that if I got very little in money I have a deal to go and buy stuff cause well its a freakin' con, I would like to get some stuff to share and so on. I felt bad saying that but she understand a bit and even if I did get more money I would of paid her my fair share for gas money and that would be it. Once I make a promise I keep it but if I need info to do something I will wait until that said part is fulfilled and I get to work, I do not want to blindly wing it and disappoint her in the end.
7) I barely posted during the time you requested for the badge COM and when FA took a shit on us, stop making it seem that's the only thing I'm doing and neglecting your COM, again I'm in a very stressful point atm and I didn't need to see you bloody post nor would feel that your pushing me to my brink which atm I am feeling sick cause I need to re-do everyone's COM from MFF cause my SD card done and been a dick for me for not saving the pics I drew at there, I almost thrown up tonight from constant all nighters remembering what people wanted, drawing them out, trying to finish them and barely getting any healthy sleep cause of it. So from that and my depression I'm forcing myself to sketch to make myself to draw so I can get happy again and thus feeling comfortable to work, and well if some of these sketches or full cleaned art appealed to me then its like any other common artist to share those certain few.
Either way point being ya I'm extra slow with working on COM cause I'm negatively bashing myself and trying to get out of that loop pole but I will get it up and around and now even seeing his post on FA, really... Ok ya I know tossing my sock around like that I am sorry but everything else oh my god... *facedesk* Seriously no wonder some don't like you Shadowpaw or now aka Raven...
Plus don't be bitching about 'oh I didn't help cover for the room, food, gas etc etc' when for:
1) You said that you covered everything and all I needed to pay her back was for the entrance badge which you (referring to that certain someone) me and my mom agreed that I would pay her back when we came back up, even my mom out of her heart gave her an extra 10 bucks for both of ya'z back home for extra gas money.
2) you said that you had the room covered and invited me at a late notice if someone didn't reply to you about being down there, sure enough that happened and I felt like you were at least repaying me back from those months that I let you stay in me house out of the goodness of my heart, HE still owes me his share of the rent (barely only payed twice out of the 8 months he lived with me) But did I hound him about that. No, cause I thought he was at least returning a bit of the favor but I guess I was wrong about that he did it just cause.
3) He only paid for one alcohol drink THAT he said that I could get before we head down out of his kindness or whatever, he's treating it like I over spend his money on booze alone...
4) Really all of this just for one badge COM and those refs were more like requests that now I'm starting to maybe decline cause of his dick move. Ya I know I'm a sloppy commissioner atm cause of my bloody depression and I can't do nothing cause people doubt me thinking that I'm lying about my depression, seriously at points in my depression not even working on art would cheer me up its that bad. I can't do nothing esp during the winter time cause I don't have any means to get out on my own leisure... Thus an un- happy artist means slow ass work, its to the point that I'm fighting myself to still be an artist cause after MFF I'm doubting myself hard and I'm fucking up my own mentality. I don't want to do that... I maybe slow but I will get it done once I feel happy about myself.
5) About that food, I only snatched one slice of that one pizza order cause the zoo or where ever that they cater food for the con goers (which he told me about and is now bitching up a storm a little) wasn't open yet or so and I was near desperate hungry to start myself thus carry myself till it did open. The only one that paid for pizza out of his good heart to cater not only me but also you and everyone for that one room party was my new friend Chibi Splash. Don't you dare think that he didn't and you paid for everything and he didn't.
6) I AM STILL WAITING contacts to do that ref art but I need info from her to make her official fursona ref sheet, my skype is fucked up from my computer, which again is fighting to still work for me still until its fixed again. Until that time you should of noted me on here or on furaffinity with all she would requested of her fursona, again wasted move and words when you should of been a bit smart about this. I'm greatful that she let me use her laptop despite my quota that I hoped for via COM cash and I did say to her that if I got very little in money I have a deal to go and buy stuff cause well its a freakin' con, I would like to get some stuff to share and so on. I felt bad saying that but she understand a bit and even if I did get more money I would of paid her my fair share for gas money and that would be it. Once I make a promise I keep it but if I need info to do something I will wait until that said part is fulfilled and I get to work, I do not want to blindly wing it and disappoint her in the end.
7) I barely posted during the time you requested for the badge COM and when FA took a shit on us, stop making it seem that's the only thing I'm doing and neglecting your COM, again I'm in a very stressful point atm and I didn't need to see you bloody post nor would feel that your pushing me to my brink which atm I am feeling sick cause I need to re-do everyone's COM from MFF cause my SD card done and been a dick for me for not saving the pics I drew at there, I almost thrown up tonight from constant all nighters remembering what people wanted, drawing them out, trying to finish them and barely getting any healthy sleep cause of it. So from that and my depression I'm forcing myself to sketch to make myself to draw so I can get happy again and thus feeling comfortable to work, and well if some of these sketches or full cleaned art appealed to me then its like any other common artist to share those certain few.
Either way point being ya I'm extra slow with working on COM cause I'm negatively bashing myself and trying to get out of that loop pole but I will get it up and around and now even seeing his post on FA, really... Ok ya I know tossing my sock around like that I am sorry but everything else oh my god... *facedesk* Seriously no wonder some don't like you Shadowpaw or now aka Raven...
RupertCole
~rupertcole
Ugh, tip of the hat goes to!
