I'm not sure of all the factors that play into this range or emotions that I feel. Some of it's loneliness, the kind that can't be supplemented alone by the presence of "friends"...I think it's deeper then that, it's a longing to understand and be understood....on the other hand I feel elated at the statute of my current freedom. I wish to find reason to what traverses my mind and alas I know that to find that is difficult to say the least.