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I Am Not Worthless.
13 years ago
What can you see, through those experienced eyes? Do you actually see Heaven when you look up?I Am Not Worthless.
I Have A History.
I Have Memories.
I Have An Affinity For The Uncommon.
I Love The Colorful And Unique Soul Of Man.
I Am Not Worthless.
It's not a poem. It's defined as a certain type of thing, but I don't know what that thing is.
You know you've sunken low when you start justifying your own existance. But I never lived the happiest of lives in my past.
I've seen the cruelty of humanity. I know that in this world of art and prose, you can't beg for a friend. You cannot ask another person to be your friend, because you may be featureless, and they will get bored with you. I know of the suffering of the kids who only want to explore and observe, who don't have as many beautiful ideas as all the godly artists do. I think about those kinds of kids every day, and it makes me cry. You can't kill yourself just because you don't have anything to give. And maybe there is more solace in giving yourself away to a stronger, more beautiful and more powerful being? I'm not being fetishy. I'm being symbolic. Once a human being artist has gained the ability to percieve the world in much greater ways than other people, they've chosen a certain path, and are becoming like gods more and more. It's terrifying, that a human being could know so much - that a human being could passively ignore beautiful imagery like it is nothing...
Then they have life problems, and complain like any other kid would do. It's funny because they can "see" more than what others see through their eyes, yet they have normal problems like the rest of us. And they don't even complain the same way, lol. They're not weak, like some of us other kids are...
I only want to make friends here. But people don't like weird people. ;_; I'm sorry. My views are too ephemereal, and sound lustful. It's creepy, and it drives people away. Even if I'm not worthless, I can still be left behind to die...
Most of the furries and artists here don't talk about the simple stuff about a picture. Everyone's so uptight. :/ I wish I could talk to someone who wasn't.
I think that people are afraid of what they love here, but they draw it to overcome their fears. I tried to do that once, a very long time ago. It was scary. It was supposed to be a yawning liger. Liger, the biggest cat in the world. I say that because he looked like a lion and a tiger at the same time. :P
It's lonely on my page. ;_; I have the skill to make beautiful poems, and maybe even a story, but I wanted to pay my respects to all of my favorite artists first, before doing anything else. So I watched lots of people. Then I got over 200 pageviews in three days... o.o because all the other people "turned around to look at who tapped them on the shoulder." That's scary and beautiful. Tapping a big scary monster on the shoulder, who doesn't turn around until a little while later. I'd have to give the creature a hug by then, because I'd be afraid that if I didn't, he would come after me to hug me anyway, and I'm scared of the idea of being the target of a monster's attention. O_O But you're people lol, so you might just sit there if I didn't thank you back for my watch. That's what's beautiful about a "godly visioneer." They don't need to stare you down. They've "seen your kind come and go," and they have better things to do with their time. At least they're nice enough to thank a nobody like me... ( ._.)
I don't think I could get any answers for my previous journal. It was too scary (like this one too, lol). People are busy, and I'm just a new account.
...
If you don't mind my saying of this...
Whenever I start looking at your sensual art, my heart starts racing, and I fave it right away. And I think we all know what I would start thinking about next... >_>
But this is what you people do. You iterate the beauty, then leave behind a trail of admirers. Do you realize what you're doing to us? Do you think of us? Most of us don't mean to tarnish your image or hurt your reputation, but you are simply drawing very, very beautifully imagined things, and it's inevitably gonna make a guy get a little...concerned... >.>
I don't know if it's just that it humors you or that you enjoy making others happy. But even if it humors you, that's beautiful too. If I was standing next to someone who could tell me what Heaven looks like then I would be humbled around them, and take the pain. I don't like being made fun of. But they have the right. God Almighty laughs at our blunders every day...
Note: I respect the writers here as well, so don't go judging me as a tl;dr person (when you just read a mountain of a journal...lol!).
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P.S. You all know that we are fantasizing about what you draw. It doesn't make us lesser people. We have the right to live just like you do.
I don't wanna be a lurker. If I can't face my fears head on then I am a coward. I'd rather watch a monster smile before it starts toying with me - at least I made the monster happy... ;_;
I'm sorry. I write, and talk too much.
Please don't judge me...
I Have A History.
I Have Memories.
I Have An Affinity For The Uncommon.
I Love The Colorful And Unique Soul Of Man.
I Am Not Worthless.
It's not a poem. It's defined as a certain type of thing, but I don't know what that thing is.
You know you've sunken low when you start justifying your own existance. But I never lived the happiest of lives in my past.
I've seen the cruelty of humanity. I know that in this world of art and prose, you can't beg for a friend. You cannot ask another person to be your friend, because you may be featureless, and they will get bored with you. I know of the suffering of the kids who only want to explore and observe, who don't have as many beautiful ideas as all the godly artists do. I think about those kinds of kids every day, and it makes me cry. You can't kill yourself just because you don't have anything to give. And maybe there is more solace in giving yourself away to a stronger, more beautiful and more powerful being? I'm not being fetishy. I'm being symbolic. Once a human being artist has gained the ability to percieve the world in much greater ways than other people, they've chosen a certain path, and are becoming like gods more and more. It's terrifying, that a human being could know so much - that a human being could passively ignore beautiful imagery like it is nothing...
Then they have life problems, and complain like any other kid would do. It's funny because they can "see" more than what others see through their eyes, yet they have normal problems like the rest of us. And they don't even complain the same way, lol. They're not weak, like some of us other kids are...
I only want to make friends here. But people don't like weird people. ;_; I'm sorry. My views are too ephemereal, and sound lustful. It's creepy, and it drives people away. Even if I'm not worthless, I can still be left behind to die...
Most of the furries and artists here don't talk about the simple stuff about a picture. Everyone's so uptight. :/ I wish I could talk to someone who wasn't.
I think that people are afraid of what they love here, but they draw it to overcome their fears. I tried to do that once, a very long time ago. It was scary. It was supposed to be a yawning liger. Liger, the biggest cat in the world. I say that because he looked like a lion and a tiger at the same time. :P
It's lonely on my page. ;_; I have the skill to make beautiful poems, and maybe even a story, but I wanted to pay my respects to all of my favorite artists first, before doing anything else. So I watched lots of people. Then I got over 200 pageviews in three days... o.o because all the other people "turned around to look at who tapped them on the shoulder." That's scary and beautiful. Tapping a big scary monster on the shoulder, who doesn't turn around until a little while later. I'd have to give the creature a hug by then, because I'd be afraid that if I didn't, he would come after me to hug me anyway, and I'm scared of the idea of being the target of a monster's attention. O_O But you're people lol, so you might just sit there if I didn't thank you back for my watch. That's what's beautiful about a "godly visioneer." They don't need to stare you down. They've "seen your kind come and go," and they have better things to do with their time. At least they're nice enough to thank a nobody like me... ( ._.)
I don't think I could get any answers for my previous journal. It was too scary (like this one too, lol). People are busy, and I'm just a new account.
...
If you don't mind my saying of this...
Whenever I start looking at your sensual art, my heart starts racing, and I fave it right away. And I think we all know what I would start thinking about next... >_>
But this is what you people do. You iterate the beauty, then leave behind a trail of admirers. Do you realize what you're doing to us? Do you think of us? Most of us don't mean to tarnish your image or hurt your reputation, but you are simply drawing very, very beautifully imagined things, and it's inevitably gonna make a guy get a little...concerned... >.>
I don't know if it's just that it humors you or that you enjoy making others happy. But even if it humors you, that's beautiful too. If I was standing next to someone who could tell me what Heaven looks like then I would be humbled around them, and take the pain. I don't like being made fun of. But they have the right. God Almighty laughs at our blunders every day...
Note: I respect the writers here as well, so don't go judging me as a tl;dr person (when you just read a mountain of a journal...lol!).
...
...
P.S. You all know that we are fantasizing about what you draw. It doesn't make us lesser people. We have the right to live just like you do.
I don't wanna be a lurker. If I can't face my fears head on then I am a coward. I'd rather watch a monster smile before it starts toying with me - at least I made the monster happy... ;_;
I'm sorry. I write, and talk too much.
Please don't judge me...
