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Regarding my current state of arty-ness and new account
13 years ago
Inconveniently evil.
"Punch him! Punch him with your fucking face!!!" - My roommate Jon playing Pokemon Gold... resulted in much LOL from me.
I'm having a[n unsuccessful] garage sale and I'm finding myself without much to do. This would be a good time to talk a bit about where I am art-wise and pertaining to my new account,
lenoirvrai.
I'm still uncertain about my feelings regarding my art and how it does/does not pertain to who I am now. I have not drawn (or wrote) in months.
1. I've been in a depressive cycle for longer than I've realized (I've actually always had it all of my life since early childhood... therapist and I have been talking about how I'm just now recognizing it for what it is and I feel I can now move past it), which is uplifting. When I get in those deep funks, I don't want to draw or write, and if I force myself, it is no way similar to my original intentions and I get even more discouraged.
2. I work all the time. If I'm not at work, I'm busy doing something else. Animal rescues. Household maintenance/cleaning. Errands. Friends (which is a time I could be drawing/writing, but I don't want to). General life happy stuff.
3. My art computer crashed and I just now got another copy of PS.
The first time I've drawn in months was when I was in the hospital. I drew Crackers on my therapy journal. My friend, April, asked me to draw her as a meerkat on hers. Next thing I know, I feel as if I'm at a convention where everyone is nagging me to draw them free art all over their shit because they don't realize how rude it is to ask that because it is not "easy" for us and is time-consuming and exhausting, not to mention boooooooooooring(/rant). I did draw, though for the sake of boredom and needing something to do with my mind as I filtered thoughts/information/revelations. I ended up drawing during every group therapy session. The therapists loved it, I drew them as well, and they were happy I was drawing again. No one, however, was happier than
thegreencoyote. I love you, babe. :) Thanks.
I do want to draw. I want to want to draw, and now that I am re-prioritizing my life and making time for myself, perhaps I will slowly come to enjoy it more. However, my interest in furry has turned a new direction. I'm not into furry that much. For the past five or so years, I've been teetering on the edge of the fandom. I love the general idea behind anthros. It has always appealed to me and it always will. I will always work with that character-type at times. However, I have a strong dislike for what the community has become, so I'm no longer searching for it in the way I had been in the past. I may still attend a convention to see a friend I rarely get to visit, but I don't plan on making it something I do every year. I'm going to Orlando. Tuscany, Corsica, Sardinia. I really want to go to the Continental Divide. Back to topic... I don't browse furry art (I never did... haha) or read furry literature. I don't go to fur-meets anymore and I don't hold parties. I have both non-furry and furry friends that are nooches for life, but I just can't seem to go to meets. Not my thing.
The only stuff I will be uploading that is anthro are my own characters from the few anthro novels I've been working on, such as 'Those People' or 'Ordo Aureus.' I'd love to share that stuff. I love drawing them and writing about them. I miss it. Also, I'm really into traditional media now, especially chalk pastels on suede paper/canvas. Loooove. I'm getting into horror and surrealism and I do plan on sharing some of those, as well, but most of those will go on my dA account.
So, there is an evolved me, and with all of the energy focused around this identity, and account of past experiences/memories/that whole time in my life that I want to move away from, I decided to get a new account. I'm not going to delete anything on this account, though, so it won't mess with your favorite's folder.
Should I upload some of my favorite pieces I've done to my new account, though? Double images from the same user/different accounts is redundant. Still.
x-posted to lenoirvrai
I'm having a[n unsuccessful] garage sale and I'm finding myself without much to do. This would be a good time to talk a bit about where I am art-wise and pertaining to my new account,
lenoirvrai. I'm still uncertain about my feelings regarding my art and how it does/does not pertain to who I am now. I have not drawn (or wrote) in months.
1. I've been in a depressive cycle for longer than I've realized (I've actually always had it all of my life since early childhood... therapist and I have been talking about how I'm just now recognizing it for what it is and I feel I can now move past it), which is uplifting. When I get in those deep funks, I don't want to draw or write, and if I force myself, it is no way similar to my original intentions and I get even more discouraged.
2. I work all the time. If I'm not at work, I'm busy doing something else. Animal rescues. Household maintenance/cleaning. Errands. Friends (which is a time I could be drawing/writing, but I don't want to). General life happy stuff.
3. My art computer crashed and I just now got another copy of PS.
The first time I've drawn in months was when I was in the hospital. I drew Crackers on my therapy journal. My friend, April, asked me to draw her as a meerkat on hers. Next thing I know, I feel as if I'm at a convention where everyone is nagging me to draw them free art all over their shit because they don't realize how rude it is to ask that because it is not "easy" for us and is time-consuming and exhausting, not to mention boooooooooooring(/rant). I did draw, though for the sake of boredom and needing something to do with my mind as I filtered thoughts/information/revelations. I ended up drawing during every group therapy session. The therapists loved it, I drew them as well, and they were happy I was drawing again. No one, however, was happier than
thegreencoyote. I love you, babe. :) Thanks. I do want to draw. I want to want to draw, and now that I am re-prioritizing my life and making time for myself, perhaps I will slowly come to enjoy it more. However, my interest in furry has turned a new direction. I'm not into furry that much. For the past five or so years, I've been teetering on the edge of the fandom. I love the general idea behind anthros. It has always appealed to me and it always will. I will always work with that character-type at times. However, I have a strong dislike for what the community has become, so I'm no longer searching for it in the way I had been in the past. I may still attend a convention to see a friend I rarely get to visit, but I don't plan on making it something I do every year. I'm going to Orlando. Tuscany, Corsica, Sardinia. I really want to go to the Continental Divide. Back to topic... I don't browse furry art (I never did... haha) or read furry literature. I don't go to fur-meets anymore and I don't hold parties. I have both non-furry and furry friends that are nooches for life, but I just can't seem to go to meets. Not my thing.
The only stuff I will be uploading that is anthro are my own characters from the few anthro novels I've been working on, such as 'Those People' or 'Ordo Aureus.' I'd love to share that stuff. I love drawing them and writing about them. I miss it. Also, I'm really into traditional media now, especially chalk pastels on suede paper/canvas. Loooove. I'm getting into horror and surrealism and I do plan on sharing some of those, as well, but most of those will go on my dA account.
So, there is an evolved me, and with all of the energy focused around this identity, and account of past experiences/memories/that whole time in my life that I want to move away from, I decided to get a new account. I'm not going to delete anything on this account, though, so it won't mess with your favorite's folder.
Should I upload some of my favorite pieces I've done to my new account, though? Double images from the same user/different accounts is redundant. Still.
x-posted to lenoirvrai
There are a few pieces in your current gallery that could make their way over to your new account, such as "Felice" (but that's a given) :3 It's up to you, though, if you really want this new account to be a "clean slate", or if you're willing to allow bits of the past slide through, either way wont hurt<3
I love you so much sweetheart,
You've really come a long way these past couple of weeks :)
I would love to continue seeing your artwork, regardless of content. You have a brilliant talent and wonderfully creative mind.
Best of luck to you!