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It's been eventful
13 years ago
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Originally, I had intended to go on to a 4 year college once I graduated. I was apprehensive about it though, mostly due to being away from my cat (who I'm pretty much with 24/7 when at home) and I know there's no way in hell I'd be able to deal with having roomates that aren't people I know already. A friend of mine suggested a program with people with disabilities and said they could help with school, so I got into it and find out they only help with schooling financially. But they could help me get a job, and I thought that was a good idea because I don't want to go on to a 4 year school and want to think things over. Due to the MS I don't have much energy, so going into psychology may not be a good idea. I'm still interested in helping others though.
Through this program they helped me find a job, but the commute is kind of far. At first it was a full time job and I was absolutely exhausted and miserable only after the 2nd day. I felt like a total failure because there was no way I could do it. Driving there was a risk in my safety due to the exhaustion and stress aggrivated the MS and made my legs so numb that I couldn't walk and didn't have the strength to drive. I was starting to feel extremely depressed again and useless because it was way too much for me. And at first the job coach and the person I report to didn't seem very understanding, but suddenly they seemed to get it when I came to work with a severe limp and walked with a cane. The job coach talked with her and managed to lessen my hours and I think I can do it now.
I really do like the job and don't want to have to leave, I just wish it wasn't so far away. Hopefully things will go okay now, though I can't help but still feel worried. It's all new to me and lately I guess I actually feel like a disabled person which sucks. All the issues I have with MS, AS, depression and anxiety have been worse for a while. So of course, things with other people haven't been going well either...
On a good note, we got a working desktop and I can now play windows games. Of course that includes TF2, but also of course, I have no friends to play it with =/
Through this program they helped me find a job, but the commute is kind of far. At first it was a full time job and I was absolutely exhausted and miserable only after the 2nd day. I felt like a total failure because there was no way I could do it. Driving there was a risk in my safety due to the exhaustion and stress aggrivated the MS and made my legs so numb that I couldn't walk and didn't have the strength to drive. I was starting to feel extremely depressed again and useless because it was way too much for me. And at first the job coach and the person I report to didn't seem very understanding, but suddenly they seemed to get it when I came to work with a severe limp and walked with a cane. The job coach talked with her and managed to lessen my hours and I think I can do it now.
I really do like the job and don't want to have to leave, I just wish it wasn't so far away. Hopefully things will go okay now, though I can't help but still feel worried. It's all new to me and lately I guess I actually feel like a disabled person which sucks. All the issues I have with MS, AS, depression and anxiety have been worse for a while. So of course, things with other people haven't been going well either...
On a good note, we got a working desktop and I can now play windows games. Of course that includes TF2, but also of course, I have no friends to play it with =/
And I also have amnesia, but haven't gotten a chance to play it xD