This week me and my 2 friends I met at naka broke off communication.. Last night.. I was a mess I hated it but.. maybe its for the best.. I haven't been making the best decisions.. and i knew it was showing.. so.. I finally looked in a mirror and said I can be that guy.. who has a happy life.. if I put my heart into it. I wasn't necessarily being the guy when we first met up.. and hanged out at naka kon.. It just fell apart through the summer.. But these two gave me hope alot of hope for a great future.. because of them I'm here and I'm enjoying being a fur. But I need to turn my depressing life around and get more into being happy and positive..

I don't know if you guys care about this or not but I did pray to god about finding that person that can give me hope in life.. I found that person.. but we aren't going to talk much now.. I'm going to give this person some space and take what she taught me since February and get on that right path.

I can't hate these two for doing this not for all they've done for me.. I just got to get up and dust myself off and keep going.. and be better..

Its time for change and I'm going to do that.