I sometimes wonder why it's such a common desire of people to have control over others in their fantasies. Is it a lust for power, or is it just the continued attempt to hide from the fact that we all, every one of us, have things beyond our ability to control? Are we just lashing back at the world we can't run?

I know I'm more than a little guilty of the same myself. There are those I'd give ...a lot to be with, and I often find myself fantasizing about having complete submission from someone. But why should anyone want that? Part of love is embracing and understanding the differences in the other, not steamrollering it to fit the make and model of your particular desire. I can't take it seriously any more, to be honest, when I catch myself doing that.

Last night, about two or three in the morning, someone broke into one of the cars owned by the owners of the place I'm staying in. Nothing valuable was taken, but it illustrated to me just how pointless it is to attempt to control the world around us. I find I'm most comfortable in a specific place (On the web) with little interference, but maybe I should step out of that comfort zone more often.

--DJ.