Normally I am not one to share my problems. I keep everything to myself most of the time, but I need to let off some steam before I breakdown and cry. I have been real down lately due to some extremely complicated family issues that I will go into a bit more detail. My brother sister and I have been taking care of and attempting to get custody of our half brother and sister since our mother passed away over 2 years ago, from lung cancer. This week it was finally decided who would receive custody of them and that was there abusive father who is not a man I would trust with a house plant never mind an impressionable child. We only had a few days to say goodbye and it is so painful, I can barely stand it I am doing my best not to cry in front of them. On multiple occasions I have almost lost it quite a few times and had to regain my composure before they noticed. I am in great fear for their safety when they are back with their father, the other fear is that we may never be able to speak to them again being cut off completely from them.

Sorry if bring anyone down with my issues, but I needed to say this somewhere. >_<

I do my best to never be down about things I have no control over, this is one of those things that I just can’t help but be upset. Lately I have not had the drive to do much at all, I am working hard to get back into my routine but it’s so difficult to do. I have been getting so much support from my friends and that helps so much and I love you all and can’t thank you enough for it. ^_^