I woke up today and reread the previous journal I wrote, realizing just how...out-of-character it felt to me reading it. I dont always experience thoughts and feelings like this, but when it happens it completely changes my state of mind, and when I revert to feeling normal, aforementioned feelings almost seem alien.
I may have to consider the possibility that my mental disorder is either more severe or more complex than I realize.

I don't think I'm actually as sad as that felt, to be honest. But I'm starting to consider the possibility that I may have something that is or is related to bipolar disorder. Those sensations of sadness and pain were crippling when I felt them, but I feel normal now. That's...a little unsettling and weird.