i dont know what im doing anymore
im in love with someone i can have and the person i do have i just dont feel it any more
i hate to see him sad but i dont want the same things he wants
i want to LIVE
i want to do something crazy
he wants to settle down and have kids
for fuck sake im only 19 i dont want kids or a house
i want a motorcycle i want to party
i just dont know what to do