Been a Bit
13 years ago
General
Sorry I haven't been around much...in all honesty, my 39th birthday on the 14th hit me harder than expected. No, it's not anyone or anything in particular...in fact, this was actually one of the better birthdays I've had in recent years, with loads of people posting "happy birthday" messages on my galleries and never-used Facebook page, and a few even giving me awesome art of my characters as well.
It was...I dunno, just a case of birthday blues that got out of hand. I've been depressed and avoiding people, snarling at folks, even losing my temper over stupid stuff. I don't have to explain why, I'm assuming, just look at my age and compare it to how little I've actually accomplished in my life; still, that plus the mounting evidence that, if I'm actually gonna survive, I'll need both a second job AND, simultaneously, a full-time school schedule just to bring me up to the same level as you people half my age...well, I haven't been in a good place emotionally, but it's nobody's fault but my own.
I am still working on those commissions I owe, so thanks for your patience. I'm just...really trying to stop worrying and get on with things.
tl;dr, I've been feeling sorry for myself so I stayed offline to keep from exposing people to my bullshit.
It was...I dunno, just a case of birthday blues that got out of hand. I've been depressed and avoiding people, snarling at folks, even losing my temper over stupid stuff. I don't have to explain why, I'm assuming, just look at my age and compare it to how little I've actually accomplished in my life; still, that plus the mounting evidence that, if I'm actually gonna survive, I'll need both a second job AND, simultaneously, a full-time school schedule just to bring me up to the same level as you people half my age...well, I haven't been in a good place emotionally, but it's nobody's fault but my own.
I am still working on those commissions I owe, so thanks for your patience. I'm just...really trying to stop worrying and get on with things.
tl;dr, I've been feeling sorry for myself so I stayed offline to keep from exposing people to my bullshit.
Aelius
~aelius
Sorry this depression's hitting you so hard, man. In any case, I hope you did have some happy moments on your birthday, and also hope you feel better soon. I'm always around if you need someone to talk to.
LabrnMystic
~labrnmystic
Fear the midlife crisis is looming? And happy belated birthday. Can't recall if I did or not.
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