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I'm still alive, just crazy...
17 years ago
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I'm sorry to everyone. I feel like I'm letting all my friends down. There's so much stuff I gotta do, and I can't keep up. Friends I really want to talk to and spend time with are probably thinking I'm not interested in them anymore or something.
To begin with, I asked my girl pet to move out. That was really hard, but living with her just wasn't working out... as much as I wanted it to. So now she's moved far away, and I'm pretty emotionally messed up and feeling awefully lonely on the girl side.
This is while I'm in the middle of buying a new house. It's a huge place with two living rooms, a studio, and two decks in the back, and would have been easily large enough for all three of us. But i guess I'll just have a guest room now. Maybe it will house a girl pet some day.
Buying your first house, of course, is considered the most stressful thing you can deal with in your life besides a death in the family. And it sure is consuming me. There's about a billion things that still have to be done in the next few weeks. Dealing with contractors for alterations to the floor plan, remodelling bathrooms, and we're doing painting and electrical ourselves. I happen to be trained as an electrical technician, and I am finding scary wiring in this house that's a serious safety and fire hazard... I'm ripping out and rewiring most everything to bring it up to code. There's a lot of work to do there.
Oh, and in case that wasn't enough...
Version 1.0 of our product at work is to be released at the end of the month. Oh yeah, and our hardware engineering only finally got me the first prototype to actually work with a couple of days ago. So that leaves me _two weeks_ in which to write all the code to work with the hardware, and have it fully functional and stable to install into real police cars on real duty. Seven digits worth of this product that doesn't exist has already been purchased, and the release date can not move. So basically, sleeping and eating have been cancelled for the foreseeable future.
And that's only the most major topics I have to deal with right now. There's really _REALLY_ important stuff that I'm letting rot because there's just not enough of me to handle it.
I'm a wreck.
And I apologize to everyone I've been letting down. I haven't decided I don't care anymore or I hate you or anything like that. I just can't keep up. I feel guilty any time I pause to take a break... like passing out the other night...
To begin with, I asked my girl pet to move out. That was really hard, but living with her just wasn't working out... as much as I wanted it to. So now she's moved far away, and I'm pretty emotionally messed up and feeling awefully lonely on the girl side.
This is while I'm in the middle of buying a new house. It's a huge place with two living rooms, a studio, and two decks in the back, and would have been easily large enough for all three of us. But i guess I'll just have a guest room now. Maybe it will house a girl pet some day.
Buying your first house, of course, is considered the most stressful thing you can deal with in your life besides a death in the family. And it sure is consuming me. There's about a billion things that still have to be done in the next few weeks. Dealing with contractors for alterations to the floor plan, remodelling bathrooms, and we're doing painting and electrical ourselves. I happen to be trained as an electrical technician, and I am finding scary wiring in this house that's a serious safety and fire hazard... I'm ripping out and rewiring most everything to bring it up to code. There's a lot of work to do there.
Oh, and in case that wasn't enough...
Version 1.0 of our product at work is to be released at the end of the month. Oh yeah, and our hardware engineering only finally got me the first prototype to actually work with a couple of days ago. So that leaves me _two weeks_ in which to write all the code to work with the hardware, and have it fully functional and stable to install into real police cars on real duty. Seven digits worth of this product that doesn't exist has already been purchased, and the release date can not move. So basically, sleeping and eating have been cancelled for the foreseeable future.
And that's only the most major topics I have to deal with right now. There's really _REALLY_ important stuff that I'm letting rot because there's just not enough of me to handle it.
I'm a wreck.
And I apologize to everyone I've been letting down. I haven't decided I don't care anymore or I hate you or anything like that. I just can't keep up. I feel guilty any time I pause to take a break... like passing out the other night...
I wish you the best of luck in your endeavors, and hope things get better for you.
Anyway, good luck with the house and such, and at worse I will see you and Jace again at FC-2009. };)
IM painting >*)
now im really a spotted yena
*hug*
I wish you the best of luch, and hope you can get though it, you have alot of support here *nuzzle*
You let me know when things calm down and I'll be more than happy to come over and hang out with you two and give you both relaxing massages. ^^
Life has a way of throwing a wrench into your works whenever it seems to be going well:/ no apolegy needed, but I'm glad you're at least physically mostly okay.
I'm sorry to hear about your pet moving out even as you prep to move, that's a lot on your plate as it is, add to that the police equipment, and it's just an inverted pyramid:/ *hugs from afar* I hope the code is able to be pulled off with nary a snag, and you can rest in a couple weeks.
I love you so much.