I am not a perfect person by any stretch of the imagination. I messed things up, I ruined friendships, I acted irrationally...now I wish I could take it all back.

I used to be in love, and in fact I still sort of am. The guy defended me when he could, helped me through some hard times, and we spent every moment together.

But that all changed...While he was still the same, I started to act irrationally. I started playing with other people more (open relationship) online on Second Life, and he was feeling neglected. But he found hope with another person while I was completely oblivious.

Eventually things ended, and slowly we kept trying to make things work...then I made the biggest mistake of my life: I decided to lose my virginity (well after the Borderlands 2 contest.) And not with a person I knew...that just ended things even more with my old flame, and in the end he wanted nothing more to do with me...

I realize all I did was wrong, but it doesn't matter...nothing will change between he and I, and I will be doomed to know I ruined the best thing I had, and I have no one to blame but myself...