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I dont really feel like I an help because Im in the same boat you are, but I felt compelled to leave a comment after seeing no one else had. I know how you feel and like you cant really afford the doctor visits right now. As soon as you can though, it would be a good idea to work with a psych or doctor to see if some meds will help you. Its what I intend to do as soon as Im able to since nothing else has helped to get me feeling 100% normal again.

Some things that have helped me:

1) Take a medium to long walk. Very basic thing, but the whole exercise to elevate your mood does really and truly help. Especially in the mornings for some reason, at least for me. There's just something about the beginning of a new day that's uplifting and the lighting is beautiful, too.

2) Immersing myself in an art piece helps sometimes, but you've already said that hobbies haven't helped, which I understand. The art thing for me is hit or miss. Most often a miss. Try finding a good book too if you like to read.

3) If you're like me, anxiety coupled with depression tends to make me isolate myself. This is not a good thing to do, though in saying that I should learn to take my own advice! I still do it even now, not really wanting to be around people a whole bunch save only my closest, closestfriends. But even then sometimes I decline an invitation to hangout in favor of wallowing in my depression. Don't do this. I seem to always forget that the company of others does help. Once I go out, I'm glad that I did when before I was so convinced I didn't want to. Funny how that works.

4) The biggest helper by far for me has been to give myself pep talks. It may not work for you, or for many, but those short conversations with myself have helped more than anything. When you're feeling absolutely down, just stop for a moment, pause, and try to see your feelings or circumstance from a different angle. See their potential to improve rather than dwelling on all the negativity depression seems to inspire.

This one is difficult to explain. I cant for the life of me think of a good example, but if/when I do Ill come back here :) Basically its just 3-5 minutes of silently trying to think bright/positive instead of letting the sadness consume you. I hope this makes sense.

I hope my brain fudge can help, if just a little. Even if you don't think any of these will help, I strongly encourage you to at least try them and see. Again, if you're like me (Im just hard-headed), I often dismiss advice without even trying because I'm convinced I know better. But, just like advice #3, that's not always the case :)

Feel free to send me a note or to reply if you feel like anything helped. Best of luck!

Oh my gosh, thank you so much for replying! ;w;

I'm going to have to try walking, like you said; I haven't really thought about it at all since I'm inside most of the time and I'm used to cooking and cleaning and having little to no time to myself... but I probably need a lot more fresh air and positive social interaction than I'm getting.

I'm actually really glad you replied to this, and for that I'm grateful to you. You've been so supportive already after only.. what, 3-4 days of following me? I hope you don't think I'm weird for saying you are an amazing person and I love you and we should talk more. uwu;

I'm going to take your advice to heart, and I'm sorry if I missed anything you mentioned, I'll have to re-read it when I wake up. ^^

Thank you again, so much! ;u;~ <3

Im glad that I was able to give you some inspiration. Talking more would be great, you're not the only one who could use someone to talk with who understands! Naw, you're not weird, that's very sweet ;;

You are very welcome~!

You mentioned you were looking up natural remedies, let me know if you find anything that helps. I haven't had any luck when I tried that route. But there's lots of stuff out there I still haven't tried.

sdfhdsiufihud not sure what else to say, sorry my reply is so short. uwu;