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The whole Onai story
13 years ago
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journal removed as it was very mean (albeit intentionally so to help motivate change) It was also an attempt to bring out some truth. But the truths are still being denied and i cannot change that. I only hope that the lies bring comfort.
1. Riku doesnt shed if at all so allergies wouldnt be a problem if at all
2. i only came over because angelo was in town and wanted to see you plus your house is right in-between where i picked him up and my house, but you didnt want to come over so i ended up leaving
3. the reason she moved at first was honestly because of rent, she wasnt happy there and you could see that with how much drinking she was doing and how stressed out she always was
4. the whole tili visiting thing had nothing to do with her breaking up with you until after MFM (which i will not get into)
now on the plus side: since she has moved here her work has improved she has been alot more happy very little drinking
im not trying to be mean to you shade i really do value your friendship as well as onai but your really making this into way more of a deal than it needs to be
from one argument veteran to a friend
not the best place for a argument to take place.
you blame her she blames you, it keeps going till you start loosing tons of watchers over it .
Tell you one thing, my mate snuck moved out and broke up with me while I was playing Diablo III, right behind my back... Call me cold hearted but when I saw her leave I just shrugged it off and kept playing. Mind you I been through a lot of break ups, and its best to not get emotional over it. I have been there, and done that, gotten horribly bad for days, but really, what does it do but make me waste days of my small life being miserable? I try to be happy, do things that make me smile, hang with friends, etc etc!
Dude, you're Awesome, and I am sorry this has happened to you, and Onai. A suit was ruined, I know how I would feel if my suit got ruined by someone other than me... (Though I was the one who pretty much ruined Wolf V1 :P), I would be horribly distressed. Though, nothing I would go horribly overboard with, I would have to get to work on making things over again.
If you ever need anything man, give me a hollar, text, or what have you, and I will do what I can for you from this far away! And if you ever need a room to crash in or anything at AC the one I reserve is completely open for you!
and, my controversial way of life: Live life for today, because who knows, you might not be alive tomorrow. And when you look back on your life, do you want to have died with a smile and fun or a life full of regrets?
PS: I may be horrible at cheering people up, but at least I tried! ;3
As it turned out, that same girl who destroyed who I used to be, had also introduced me to a growing Michigannime con called Youmacon; and as that turned out, it was going to be held again, the weekend before I was due to leave. I decided, this will be my last convention, and because of it, I wanted to do something truly great with it. Just about two weeks before Youmacon 2010, I decided who I was going to be; thus the Ghost you know was put together...I did end up going, but just before I was going to leave, something happened. My garage door wouldn't close! It took me and the neighbor 45 minutes to close it and fix it.
I later then arrived at the convention later that same day (thursday, first day). As soon as I got there, I began to look for check-in and out of no where (I was already wearing ghost.) This kid, who I layer dubbed "powerarmor" comes up to me and asks for my picture and then we began talking. We ended up hanging out for about 20 more minutes before a fairly large man in a suit comes up to me and says, "Hey, I really like your uniform."...He said his name was lee and we ended up chatting until he said, hey I really want you to meet the rest of my team...10 minutes later they were all standing at an opposing end of the hallway all prop guns pointed. We joked and then all takes for a moment and said our hello's. After walking with them all for a brief moment, lee, the large suited man, asked powerarmor and I if we wanted to go upstairs with them to their suites. As it turned out, they all were working Youmacon staff and security. We all chilled for a good while, and I ended up up decided to unofficially work the con with them. I di for a few days until when Saturday morning rolled up and I was already at there door. They invited me in and without a word from the rest Lee said, "All who think Ghost is one of us, say I..." And without a sound, without a peep, not one person hadn't disagreed. From then I became the "official unofficial" member of this tightly nit group I had gotten to know so closely in such short time. From then I was put on line security for the dance that night. After everybody's normal shifts being over, me being the work horse I am, I continued to do what I was doing since I met Lee...work! But it was that Saturday night, I would meet someone in just a split moment that would make my heart beat again. At 3:15am I came across a few people just standing there fresh from the rave. The tall blonde haired one says to me "the game" just as I'm passing. Now keep in mind, besides frequent showers, I have not once stopped being ghost. So I look athim,then the ledge, then him, then the ledge and repeated...as if I was going to throwhim over 10 stories, I instead joked. But he reminded me of a picture I drew so I told him I have this picture on my zine that reminds me of him, so I gave him my number and he text me. I went along my way and for the first time since Wednesday morning, I had finally decided to sleep...I went up, striped down and showered. Jumping on the bed in my room with only myself in it, I checked my phone to see his text. I then pondered, "like so many here, what if he doesn't have a room? What if he is just going to sleep in a corner or something?" By this time, I had felt something between us. I hoped into my gear again and spent the next 8 1/2 hours literally lookng in every nook and cranny of this 88 floor building. Never funding him, and completely blown out tired at this point, I resigned. Why not just text him? My phone had ended up being so friend from me sweating on day one that I could do nothing with it except receive texts. Next morning I awoke to me having to scramble out of the room due to it being check out time. I put my stuff in their sweet and so began to work. On my way down to the main floor, I noticed myself feel out of it. I went down to the staff rec room and sat down to be sure I was okay. That is when it hit me, I would be leaving all these great people in a few days and non of them even knew they'd never see me again. I began to feel a rush of tears try to break past my eyelids, I had to use every ounce of my strength to not let it all out. After an hour, I pulled myself together, got up and left the rec room to only see a familiar face...It was that tall blonde one! I ran over to him and showed him that picture I promised I would. We chatted for a bit after that and then parted ways. I ended up staying with my new friends until just 2 days before I was due to leave. We went to b-dubs and had great times.
My phone began to work again, and I was texting that blonde, tall one everyday from day to night for six months straight. We came to grow very close and after AC 2011 we had gotten far closer and because I met him at that very moment, because I dated Hannah, that girl, because my garage didn't close, because I met powerarmor, who led us to lee at that exact moment, to had me meet his awesome friends, who put me to work that night...I wouldn't of met Akasa at that very moment on that very place. Though because I did meet him, I wouldn't of spent that entire night looking for him, meeting so many other staff members such as
What I am saying to you is Shade, that remember this whole series of events, but leave them in your past where they happened. Great things will come of it. I just don't want to see you get hurt like I was.
Also, I am sorry about all these typos, my phone is by far the largest pain in the ass it has ever been.
So much more has happened though and it continues to shape me. I went through some hard times though, I really want you to not go through what I did. So that said, pray you never need me, I pray good things for you, but just rest assured, I will do all I can to not let you down. And as far as I am concerned. I owe you for sushi still.
I can't imagine you being terrible to anyone.