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Dear friends, furries I may or may not know!
13 years ago
Thank you very much for all the comments you made into my last journal, and of course for the notes and to those who contacted me outside of FA. It feels good to know that there are people/furries who care about me, and to see so many of you are trying to help, even furries I don't even know yet. To tell the truth, I wasn't expecting anybody to care about my journal, so I was really surprised by all these messages.
This wasn't a joke, I really meant to do this. I planned my suicide on monday instead of going into school, but I changed my mind. Of course, I didn't gave up on suicide entirely, I'm only waiting temporarily for things to get better.
It's the work, the new school and the long distance relationship that caused/causes this for me. I wouldn't want to get into detail about it... I started to visit a psychiatrist and also started to take an antidepressant, and the doctor wrote me a permission to not visit school for 1-2 weeks, so I can relax and sort things in myself at home. Right now, I don't want to concentrate on the problems and I am waiting for the medicine to take effect, I hope it'll give me a starting kick to continue.
I'm grateful for everyone who tried to help. It wasn't worthless, because this was a part of my decision to give up on suicide for now.
Also, a big thank you to my family, who have been at my side the whole time. My father, who even came from his workplace to help me, and to my boyfriend 
Lernie who woke up very early and managed to travel 200 km's just to be with me.
I won't delete my last journal, just so if I'm on a low point, there's something that reminds me that there are people who care about me. I don't want to reply to each comment, so I thank everybody with this journal who took the time to reply!
Sose felejtsd el, Mi végig melletted vagyunk. Akárhánymillióan is vagyunk.
I'm so glad you're getting some help and starting some new meds. You can totally kick this funk you're in. You go, girl.