Hey everyone, I know it's been a while and I haven't been as active here on FA as I normally am. But, a few things have been happening and I've tried to not let them hinder my working on art here. However, I'm unable to really be able to continue both as much as I wanted. A bit has happened since the beginning of this year.

Firstly, after I had begun to close in on my graduation, we got word that my mother's sister suddenly died in England due to her chemo treatment. They said she went to bed perfectly fine after they released her from the hospital, but she passed in her sleep. They believe she was too frail from the chemo before, which was reduced down, to a lower level when she was released and then left us. She was my mother's older sister by 2 years, and she took the worst of it. We've slowly gotten over it, but my mother will still refuse to talk about it and wished that no one offer sympathies since it only acted as a reminder because when she last visited England it was 2 weeks before my aunt died and my mum couldn't even get a chance to see her because she never got to make it to my grandparents anniversary due to a stomach ailment that kept her bed ridden the entire week she was there.

Sadly, the biggest news is that my grandfather here is ill. He's had colon cancer for the past year and a half and he just recently went under chemo these past few months. At first it wasn't so bad, but now he's gone from bad to worse. Currently he is very frail and cannot even leave the house. We had trouble with worrying over him since the 4th of July. Between then and now he has undergone two surgeries. One was planned and the other was an emergency where there was a clot in his colon. If it was left a few more hours after it was tended to he would have had it rupture and die in a few minutes. Thankfully, they were able to stop that. Unfortunately, they couldn't remove it because of how close in proximity it was to the remaining cancer cells. They had to completely bypass his track and now has a tube that comes out for him. As of now, the anticipated timing is that we may only have this last Christmas to spend with him before he passes.

The grandchildren are helping out because he needs a lot of attention and help at home. We are more flexible with our scheduals then the "adults", so more of us are visiting him to make sure he is kept well. This does place me away from the computer quite a bit, and my tablet.

I have been trying to complete my commissions queue from long since past, but it has been difficult to find the time needed to sit down and really hammer out a full piece. As it is, I look at them and see that they arn't even to the standard I once held them up to. I am not sure of the reason, but I feel my quality to produce has diminished with my distracting thoughts. As it is, I want to let the commissioners know for the full commissions list that I will refund their money for them. I want to complete them and have tried to sit down and finish, but the efforts I feel I put in are not enough to warrent what you've paid me for. I don't want you to have your commissions suffer in quality because of my inability.

The kicker of course is that this is how I make a living, and it has been difficult to try and be there for my family and to keep myself supported. So, I will have to continue working some how to stay functional. To do so, I will only be able to open myself up to sketch commissions. I will re-edit the price sheet in the near future. As it stands, I will try to be able to stream them, but I don't suspect I'll be able to frequently. I will have to be working from my laptop and will have to be extremely careful around the grandparents place to be able to try and complete them as much as I can.

To the current full detail commissioners, please let me know your current paypal addresses and the one's you sent. I think I have found them all, but I don't want to make any mistakes and miss someone out I overlooked. Please send me a note to let me know the payment you had sent to me and the name it was under so I can find it and then refund you to your current paypal, or the same if it hasn't changed. I want to apologize immensly to you for the time and patience you've offered me to work. I wish I was better able to make them for you.

To all my watchers, I want to apologize for my inactivity. I hope that with this I may be able to at least stay somewhat on track here to working in an effort to remain with you all and to keep myself honed in to drawing for all of you.

I did not wish to have this impact my ability to function here, but currently I have been unable to keep it up. I want to thank all those who have been there to support me and help me in this. It truly means a lot to me to have those small points where I'm able to feel more at ease, if only for a little bit at a time. And thank you for understanding how much my family means to me and why I've been half myself these past few months. I hope that in time I will be better, though I don't want to think as to what has to happen to have that come to pass.

Still, thank you all again and please accept my apologies for all the troubles I may have caused you.