*finishes reading* ><;;

I know the feeling, several times over, I hope, very much hope, things improve, and I will state your self depreciation isn't accurate and you are in fact, awesome. *squeezes tight*

Hey Kit Kat, don't be so rough on yourself, hun. I know things seem bleak now, and trust me, I've been there. You've no idea the life I had laid out for myself many times over. A relationship builded up, then bam destroyed. This last one was the worst. There have been times I thought I'd never love again, but I got up and went right back out there. Sure this time is different for me, but I know there will be a time where I'll look for love again. I learned something from each of my relationships, and that's something you can say you've had over others: you've had a relationship. There are some that go through their whole lives without anyone. And don't say you're nothing to brag about either. Hell, I remember the days where a young Achi was very proud to be mated to a young yapok, and if it ever happened again, I know I'll still feel proud to be mated to someone as awesome and lovely as yourself.

Oh Nikki :C....(hugs)