Do you honestly think that drugs and pills will ease the pain? its basically saying "i give up i'm no better" i know its hard losing a loved one but it doesnt mean go back to what you were doing i'm pretty sure she'd want you to keep your head high and try to stay happy. but its your choice hun.

I won't give up on him, I never will. I do want him to try and beat this thing because I have faith in him, just like he's always believed in me. My love for him won't die either. We both have our own demons to battle.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vH0nP4NzS9M

dude.. ive never met you.. and most likely never will.. but i've been in your position man... literally.. even dealing with your ex-mate and her depression... and trust me.. it can be frustrating and it can bring you down when all you're doing is trying to bring her up.. but ... the trick is.. to have yourself right at all times... if someone else's actions are bringing you down, make the distance, build yourself back up, and if you love them.. and just being around them is too painful then break it off, move on, get stronger and revisit it when you can see it from a different perspective than the bubble of love and desire... with that said... drugs is just going to keep you in the depression.. like.. sure.. you're numb.. but it comes back.. just got to find the root of it, snap it off.. and get your shit right.. im speaking from experience.. i can only hope you read this and litsen... if not.. i tried to atleast help my fellow human... deuces.