I just learned that somebody really close to me might have Borderline Personality Disorder. And I am willing to help them as much as possible…but gods it’s so much more complicated then that. Of course it is right? I want to love him, I do. I’ve had a huge crush on him for a while now and just learned that he is…very unstable. I don’t mind. I can put up with that. But…he also keeps hurting a friend I care for very deeply. So…that makes me want to hate him. But I can’t because I still want to love him.


Sorry I've been posting journals as often as one would a facebook status recently...but I like to vent. I hope ya'll don't mind.