I place this mask on my heart
Watching you walk out of my life
The wound to great for me to accept'
Forever seeping, Never ending

screw it I can't even make anything poetic I so messed up

YEA i bitch alot get over it>.< If I didn;t do this I think I would end up doing something stupid (more so then I normaly do)

I man today was good until someone from my past walked right up to me at my job. A girl I though I would never see again had brought me to my knees once again like she did when she left me

here is a piece of the convo with my Bobcat

*curls up slightly*
Sheep! says:
lol
Sheep! says:
*cuddles against your warm body*
Sheep! says:
don't worry
gale says:
smile Weakly* I am not worried. I just saw someone I hoped to never see again. Then again I really wanted to at the same time
Sheep! says:
what?
Sheep! says:
what's going on sweetie?
gale says:
*winces* do not get the wrong idea or anything ok. Yet I not sure I want to talk about it. I don't want you to think that I found someone else or that I wanted to be with that person
Sheep! says:
no no, its fine
Sheep! says:
I'm just wanting to make sure your ok
Sheep! says:
what happened?
gale says:
Well ok in a way then not*sighs* well I was at work today and such and going about things like I normaly do. A smile and my hard work. When Who should walk in. One of my exes that I had ended on good terms with. I mean we moved that was all that kept us apart.
gale says:
When I saw her I felt myself jump inside my heart got all jittery. *curls up tighter* and she seemed happy to see me as well. As I talked to her a bit all my "What ifs" were closed in two hard statments.
gale says:
Well not really. I saw the ring on her hand and the telltale signs of the mirical of life. For some reason I felt myself crash into a wall. Then again I also felt as if a weight lifted from my shoulders.
gale says:
it was so hard not to run to the back of the store and just hid myself in a tight ball. IDK I just felt like shit to be exact and I just rolercoastered the rest of the night
gale says:
*sighs* So thats the story.
Sheep! says:
aww
Sheep! says:
*hug* that's hard
gale says:
the funny thing is I never been like that. I always gotten over things fast. Some called me unemotinal when THings came to relationships. OR told me that I hid them to deep and I would get cancer. YEt when I saw her all that just bubbled up and really screwed me up
Sheep! says:
*nods* its understandable
gale says:
thanks for lisening. tich I feel pathatic
Sheep! says:
whenever you have strong feeling for someone stuff like that happens
(ignor her screename sheep X3 but yea she is sounderstanding)