Update on everything
13 years ago
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█▀███████▄▀▀██████▀▀▀▀▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▄▀▀▀█████████▀█▀██▀ (Read my previous journal entry in case you're wondering what this is all about http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3897560/ )
Today I went and got the urn back with Kalle's ashes. It was with heavy heart and tears in my eyes that I left the vet and went home. I had other things to do today but I just couldn't function enough to take on anything other than the trip home.
It's been very hard to cope these two weeks since it happened but even though today was a heavy load on my emotions it at least feels like he's back home now where he belongs, and I can at last feel some kind of closure over all of this.
It's still not easy doing anything normal yet, like eating, sleeping or focusing on anything at all is virtually impossible for anything longer than a few minutes.
I have not been able to draw anything or make anything in 3D at all either and I don't know when I'll be able to feel any inspiration for such things just yet.
I just cry a lot all the time and keep replaying those days two weeks ago in my head over and over, I honestly don't know where to go from here. I'm just taking it one day at a time right now.
Today I went and got the urn back with Kalle's ashes. It was with heavy heart and tears in my eyes that I left the vet and went home. I had other things to do today but I just couldn't function enough to take on anything other than the trip home.
It's been very hard to cope these two weeks since it happened but even though today was a heavy load on my emotions it at least feels like he's back home now where he belongs, and I can at last feel some kind of closure over all of this.
It's still not easy doing anything normal yet, like eating, sleeping or focusing on anything at all is virtually impossible for anything longer than a few minutes.
I have not been able to draw anything or make anything in 3D at all either and I don't know when I'll be able to feel any inspiration for such things just yet.
I just cry a lot all the time and keep replaying those days two weeks ago in my head over and over, I honestly don't know where to go from here. I'm just taking it one day at a time right now.
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