I was looking at my gallery 2 to 3 pages back and just wow. Its hard for me to believe how far I've come and how much things have changed with me. One big thing I've noticed is how.much attention I used to get then to now. I sounded so eccentric way back when and idealistic (which I pretty much was way back when) and I don't know if that attracted people to my shenanigans. I've made plenty of friends and a whole lot of those people have walked off by now and don't contact me anymore. I don't flaunt my sexuality and kinks so loudly anymore and for the longest time I thought getting better at being humble would be a good thing. But 18 yr old me walking around fet fairs in minimal clothing and diapers in public seem to one get way more attention you furs as well as seeming to have way more fun doing it. At the same time I think back to the things that were going on in my life back then, and this blunt openness did cause a lot of bridges to collapse over time. I just find how I changed over the years interesting, in a sense I guess you could say I've grown up. But I don't know at the moment, I'm less of a deviant now and more of a productive member of society, I keep my private life behind closed doors, I have a job now. I worry about things like bills, increasing income, building a family and other things. I'm completely sober for a good amount of time now and am not so interested in going to public events to become a community star.

So I just found all of these subtle changes interesting, I shudder to look at old journals to learn of what they say and how I've changed intellectually.

But in other news I got a new pack of diapees last night and that has been making me really happy. And my birthday is next week wish me happy birthday on the 4'th if you care :D