*this is NOT a poem, or song...or anything of the such...just how i feel right now and needed to get it out*

Im in tears,
knowing that im truly not following,
not trusting in Your plan for me.

I doubt.

I try to accomplish things on my own.
I know I cant,
but I still try.

Why do I forget?

So again,
Im starting over.
Or so it feels like it.

On my knees.

Please, direct me.
Guide my hands
Guide my feet.

Break my heart

Prepare me for your plans
For they are greater
bigger than me.

Use me, Lord.