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A smattering of odd thoughts.
13 years ago
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So, as the topic says, I've just had a few thoughts in my head I'd like to toss out at random. Should anything merit a comment, feel free, but I figured my page was getting stale, and this might help - both the page and myself.
First things first, I've been around here over five years now. Kinda missed the 'ceremony' by two months, but, whatever. Been 'round since September of 2007... such a long, long time.
As odd as it might sound - and, trust the hell out of me, even I think it sounds odd - but, as of late, I've been thinking I'm entirely too feminine. I jus'... I don't possess enough ranks in Craft: Wordsmith to explain how I feel. On a similar note, I've been feeling a lot more... aggressive? Not my usual passive fare, and that's a bit concerning too. I don't know, maybe I just need to stop and 'reimagine' myself... or maybe it's just a phase. I can't quite decide. Hmm.
Coulda swore I had more... guess not? Oh well.
First things first, I've been around here over five years now. Kinda missed the 'ceremony' by two months, but, whatever. Been 'round since September of 2007... such a long, long time.
As odd as it might sound - and, trust the hell out of me, even I think it sounds odd - but, as of late, I've been thinking I'm entirely too feminine. I jus'... I don't possess enough ranks in Craft: Wordsmith to explain how I feel. On a similar note, I've been feeling a lot more... aggressive? Not my usual passive fare, and that's a bit concerning too. I don't know, maybe I just need to stop and 'reimagine' myself... or maybe it's just a phase. I can't quite decide. Hmm.
Coulda swore I had more... guess not? Oh well.
Plus, happy five year anniversary! I'd get something to commemorate the occasion, but sadly I'm fuck poor. It'll have to wait a little while. <3
And, I don't know. Sometimes I jus' look at myself and think I'm not quite that way anymore, y'know? Like I said, been feeling awfully masculine and whatnot as of late. Quite less girly, weak, and submissive, and more big, powerful, and aggressive. 's a very peculiar thing for me to feel, in truth. I'm just having a hard time, last few weeks, seeing myself as the fragile, doughy reindeer I've felt so at home as...
S'long as it's you doing it, I fail to see how anyone could dislike it. ;)
Honestly, I hope it's a phase. I don't like feeling like I'm not myself, y'know? 'n, well, if I had to change such a gorgeous deer to anything else it would sicken me. If it's not... well, I'll work from there. Always gonna be a doughy fatty-fat, though. FOREVER!
Though I rather enjoy the idea of a crushing, power-bottom Torbera with undercurrents of muscle beneath the pudge. >:3
So clenching thighs suddenly turn to nutcrackers when you find the right spots. Hehehehehe.
As long as you ARE yourself, the shapeliness certainly wouldn't concern ME. Others I can't speak for, though. *Shrug*
Miss you though. You wanna be more masculine? Fine with me. <3