So yeah fuck you! Fuck you insurance. Fuck you doctors. Fuck you until you bleed from your hair tips. fuck you with badly glued back together glass dildos with small bombs in them. fuck you utterly and completely. fuck you.

a YEAR of changing insurance and trying to get appointments and calling and getting nowhere and waiting for this or that new card or insurance... A YEAR of no meds. My blood sugar occasionally getting over 400 (though according to some research the megadoses of Vitamin C can evidently present that as a false thing so whatever... evidently everything i was on can do that... fuckers avandia and Glucophage can do that. taking prozac with diabetic meds can do that.) but yeah woke up after a finally good nights sleep. feeling so excellent. called the dentist and i have an appointment and can get this damn tooth out as long as i face my absolute greatest most debilitating fear and survive it. again. considering it has almost brought on stroke and heart attack before. this should be easy... i am already shaking thinking about it and am fighting off the reliving the syringe in my eye memories... so i call the doctor AGAIN for the millionth time to try to get an appointment. HAHAHAHA i got a real live person! finally! it has only been since fucking AUGUST! and i get. I am sorry but you cannot be a patient here since we have not participated in UPMC for you in 2 years... wait whut... back earlier this year when i was asking if you took Coventry insurance you said you did not take that but did take UPMC plans... now you tell me you take none of it and have not been accepting new patients even though i had to get a car reissued and wait for months for that cause one doctor left your practice and i had to wait for a replacement... WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF!

it has been OVER A YEAR since i have had access to anything other than a fucking ER. No meds other than the once left over from my forgetfulness and a million fucking suppliments that i am not even sure are working. Other than the blood workup from the ER visit a little while ago that showed that my blood glucose is insane (probably) but several other things were LOW. (i guess everything else is fine according to the two pages of things listed)

and the worst part is i have been trying to find a Doctor since i moved to ellwood 5 years ago. 5 fucking years of sorry we do not take SSI people cause you suck intestinal parasites like you already are. or sorry no new patients and of course the always lovely we do not take THAT insurance... the old clinic i was at even though the "doctors" there were enough of a doctor that i could get prescriptions from them and all that shit were not good enough for my fucking student loan dickweeds. Nope has to be a real PCP and has to have been seeing you for 7 years and must know the wrinkle pattern of your puckered anal rose. so not only was i not getting the care i needed but what i was getting did not even count by the people who were all we need medical info about you to say Yeah you is a cripple and fucked by life... not to mention every two years a new doctor who you personally had to train cause reading your fucking medical record would take to much time. like the second to the last Bitch who came in all high and mighty at me telling me i was a dick for refusing anti depressants cause she saw i discontinued the one that Nearly Killed me with some deadly ass syndrome... not that i had already tried others and was there to get my prozac refilled along with exam...

and people wonder why i want to fucking give up. Now i am going to have to go doctor hunting again. and then jump through insurance hoops again. i fucking wish Obama care was actually kicked in fully so these fuckers could not pull this shit. fuck all the things