Thinking about refunding the last 3 people who bought commissions from me.
It has been crazy. I'm getting hell for not completing them faster, but when I sit down to work on them, my dog thinks he is not getting enough attention, so he pisses all over the place. Both of my jobs are pulling me in for more hours over the holiday season. I have bills to pay and zero time for art it seems like. Should I take a break? It has already been 8 months and I have only done 12 or so GodDamn commissions. Im not trying to sound like 'that guy who quits art for blahh blahh blahh" but fuck,... drawing isn't fun anymore because I know AS SOON as I finish a commission, Another will be greeting me. I know I took more than I could do, but I desperately wanted to go to AC. and now Im paying for it. It is either I take a break, or refund money. I don't want to have a reputation for either but it is killing me and I am overwhelmed with stress as it is..living paycheck to paycheck. Even now I only have 26 bucks to my name until Friday.

My throat is in knots because I did used to love drawing.. When someone wanted MY art it felt so gratifying.. like I'm actually better than I think I am. I dont want to ruin future commission possibilities or let anybody down. but I just don't know what to do.