I'll try explain my thoughts where I can begin them, and please don't be wondering if they would seem like a broken record or a bunch of illogical chaos.

I have to admit I've done lots of rude things lately which by I can't really have a clear conscience. Last year I was completely the inverse regarding my behavior, I used to behave a bit more open-minded than how I act today, I used to not taking things too personally, I could ignore insults without a glance of an eye.
Now it's all gone. I'm not sure whether they were useful skills or not, all I know is that I have changed and I have no guarantee I will be the same like before, perhaps I never will. Who knows, maybe I haven't really changed during my life. Maybe I have been all myself and just let myself drift by the current.

I guess this is the time to apologize everyone here all public to everyone who were regarded, thought without names, but still some situations would seem familiar to you.

I'm sorry for:
-breaking my promise upon never leave you and didn't really come back to you.
-I have been asking too much about your client who I felt truly envious of and making you hurry up fulfilling my greedy needs.
-I have been criticizing too much and should have rather enjoy what was given.
-I was expecting the reaction you couldn't give me that moment and I took it personal.

I'm sure there might be more cases I seem to have forgotten, but that's all I could recall.
From now on I deal with all the mess I caused and their offset, however honestly I'd like to have a chance to redeem my faults.