I know I don't write in this much but after a week long struggle with pain and writhing stomach with a stomach virus and the fever delusions that came with it, (I thought I was Severus Snape). I've come to the realization that I'm not going to live forever. especially not at this weight. I'm going to start working with my weight and with anything I can do to better myself in the ways I can. I want to be remembered for why people liked me. I want to be be self sufficient and self dependent. I wanna be a good person. more importantly, I want to live. I'm gonna get my college finding and such if I can and continue pursuing journalism. That's all of my rant I suppose o.o