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Christmas Spirit or lack there of....
13 years ago
From the Desk of Jack the Gorilla....
Whats wrong with me?
I know I'm bitter and jaded, but this year it just seems worse. I've been burnt out on Christmas since October when we had to put up Christmas trees before Halloween.
As any child, I used to love Christmas, the excitement, the time off from school, the toys! The fun adventures, it was just so magical. And as I grew up, I still liked it, I just didn't care for some of the materialistic aspects that modern Christmases seem to be all about.
But with all this overload, I just want to hibernate in my home and NOT decorate, NOT make cookies, Avoid all of the chirstmas-y commercials and TV. I really and honestly want to skip it this year, but that fact makes me feel sad. Whats wrong with me.
As with a lot of things, I miss the sensation I have with recollections and events more than the event itself. I remember waking up last christmas, from a wonderful (and sexy dream) in a brightly lit room thinking 'Its Christmas' and having this nice content feeling, just knowing that it was a little bit of a special day.
I'm blathering on, aren't I? From the past few years my favorite parts have been warm moments, like the last christmas in college, warm in my dorm, watching the Wildcats while I was in a blanket with tea and it was snowing outside and waiting on my Dad to show up.
I just feel so tired of everything. Heh....
I know I'm bitter and jaded, but this year it just seems worse. I've been burnt out on Christmas since October when we had to put up Christmas trees before Halloween.
As any child, I used to love Christmas, the excitement, the time off from school, the toys! The fun adventures, it was just so magical. And as I grew up, I still liked it, I just didn't care for some of the materialistic aspects that modern Christmases seem to be all about.
But with all this overload, I just want to hibernate in my home and NOT decorate, NOT make cookies, Avoid all of the chirstmas-y commercials and TV. I really and honestly want to skip it this year, but that fact makes me feel sad. Whats wrong with me.
As with a lot of things, I miss the sensation I have with recollections and events more than the event itself. I remember waking up last christmas, from a wonderful (and sexy dream) in a brightly lit room thinking 'Its Christmas' and having this nice content feeling, just knowing that it was a little bit of a special day.
I'm blathering on, aren't I? From the past few years my favorite parts have been warm moments, like the last christmas in college, warm in my dorm, watching the Wildcats while I was in a blanket with tea and it was snowing outside and waiting on my Dad to show up.
I just feel so tired of everything. Heh....
Just remember the good and focus on that one small moment.
as for solitude come on up here, i'll show you my special spot where you can be alone for as long as you want, no one bugs me when Im there, you can borrow it.
You could always try to celebrate on Orthodox Christmas (January 6). *hugs*