I'm feeling a lot more better now I've been in a huge HUGE block for the past few months not wanting to do anything and jeliousy kind of added the hurt to it I was just jelious of everyone. I was thinking everyone I watched we're being treated better then and it made me feel unloved so to speak and it just kept swelling in me like cancer till I just couldn't go to DA or FA without feeling hurt. But I'm starting to feel a lot better now cause now I am visiting my sister for the holidays and planning to move into her home as well. She offered to let me live with her so I had to think for a couple of months and the one big reason hit me I was so depressed because my parents were so negative with me. Also my dad's drinking problem is an issue so it's safer being with my sister so I'm Actully much happier now the only problem is my sister keeps taking my computer LOL but hey I'm at school most of the time so she gets bord LOL

And thank you everyone for your love and friendship and I hope you have wounderful holidays.