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My Love Life
17 years ago
I didn't really have much, because I'm unpopular.
My first boyfriend was...very short. In 3rd grade, I saw this chubby boy named Harry. I said I liked him. Then I don't know why, we kind of broke up. XD
My mom said I couldn't date anyone until I was 14, because of how I always act around people. D:
Then when I turned 14...I STILL HAD NO ONE! what a piece of shit. e.e Well actually in 7th grade, after I stayed back......oh, I never told you about that, didn't I?
Well, just in one paragraph: I stayed back in 7th grade because of two reasons: 1. I was too lazy to do my homework. And 2, the far worst reason: I was one age short. I started 7th grade when I was 11 (12 in September), and the school just don't like young people. e.e
So anyway, after the first time in 7th grade, I met this guy that was my age at my apartment in Massachusetts. His name was Justin. We were at the swimming pool. Suddenly, we started hanging out, and then the next day, we were at the park, cuddling. c: Then after December...I don't know what the fuck happened. We suddenly grew apart. I don't know why. XD
Then during 10th grade in Math, we were in the same class. Then in the beginning my junior year (which I just finished =D), my brother started to be friends with him. Most days, they always went in my brother's (stinky) room and play video games, and sometimes I would watch them.
One day, Justin wanted to go to my house to not see my bro, but to see me. when we were watching TV, we started cuddling again. Then next week. It was a Monday, and he came to see me again. Our faces were really close and...I got my first kiss. c:
We were in a relationship...well, we didn't go out dates yet. D:<
During school, when I leaned my head on his shoulder, he would look at me funny, and I would sit up and say, "Sorry."
On Valentines Day, I gave him a bag of Chocolate kisses and a Valentine card for "someone special". He thanked me. One problem: He didn't give me anything.
I fell in love with him. I didn't know how he felt......until next week...
Next week, on a Thursday, I signed onto Gaia Online. My avatar says that I have a message. It was from Justin. He goes on Gaia too. I thought he would want to meet me in the Towns, but...it wasn't that.
Justin broke up with me in a message......in a god damn mother fucking message. This is my advice: Never ever EVER dump someone in an Email. That, my dear friend, is the ABSOLUTE WORST POSSIBLE WAY to dump someone. When you're dumping someone in person, face to face, it shows that you really care about the person, but you want the relationship to be over.
But in a god damn Email, you just send a message, with no feelings what so ever. That was it. It was over. The end. Zippo.
I fucking cried my ass off after reading the message. My mom comforted me. And that's when my heart began to turn into a refrigerator.
The next day, I never said a word. At all. At work, I had to talk, I didn't mind that. My two best friends came to visit me, and I told them about what happened, and they comforted me as well.
From this day forward, my depression has gotten worse. I will never get a lover, and I will never see happiness in the future. My heart turned into Antarctica, where the penguins, my favorite animal live. I don't care about anything anymore. I don't care about who's president, or if I'm going to turn homeless.
The only way to cure me, is to find the love of my life, which will never happen at all. I'm not special. I'm not popular. None of the other people in my grade notices me. And when I get my diploma...
After senior year, I have to be in school for 2 more years, because in 9 - 11, I never took a Science. From 10 - 11, I never took a history. Senior year, I have no clue what's going on, so bull shit.
~sighs~ Even if I get my diploma, I'll never be good for College. I want to go to college to learn more about music...but I always think to myself that my voice is terrible.
i'm actually crying while typing this. excuse me...
My first boyfriend was...very short. In 3rd grade, I saw this chubby boy named Harry. I said I liked him. Then I don't know why, we kind of broke up. XD
My mom said I couldn't date anyone until I was 14, because of how I always act around people. D:
Then when I turned 14...I STILL HAD NO ONE! what a piece of shit. e.e Well actually in 7th grade, after I stayed back......oh, I never told you about that, didn't I?
Well, just in one paragraph: I stayed back in 7th grade because of two reasons: 1. I was too lazy to do my homework. And 2, the far worst reason: I was one age short. I started 7th grade when I was 11 (12 in September), and the school just don't like young people. e.e
So anyway, after the first time in 7th grade, I met this guy that was my age at my apartment in Massachusetts. His name was Justin. We were at the swimming pool. Suddenly, we started hanging out, and then the next day, we were at the park, cuddling. c: Then after December...I don't know what the fuck happened. We suddenly grew apart. I don't know why. XD
Then during 10th grade in Math, we were in the same class. Then in the beginning my junior year (which I just finished =D), my brother started to be friends with him. Most days, they always went in my brother's (stinky) room and play video games, and sometimes I would watch them.
One day, Justin wanted to go to my house to not see my bro, but to see me. when we were watching TV, we started cuddling again. Then next week. It was a Monday, and he came to see me again. Our faces were really close and...I got my first kiss. c:
We were in a relationship...well, we didn't go out dates yet. D:<
During school, when I leaned my head on his shoulder, he would look at me funny, and I would sit up and say, "Sorry."
On Valentines Day, I gave him a bag of Chocolate kisses and a Valentine card for "someone special". He thanked me. One problem: He didn't give me anything.
I fell in love with him. I didn't know how he felt......until next week...
Next week, on a Thursday, I signed onto Gaia Online. My avatar says that I have a message. It was from Justin. He goes on Gaia too. I thought he would want to meet me in the Towns, but...it wasn't that.
Justin broke up with me in a message......in a god damn mother fucking message. This is my advice: Never ever EVER dump someone in an Email. That, my dear friend, is the ABSOLUTE WORST POSSIBLE WAY to dump someone. When you're dumping someone in person, face to face, it shows that you really care about the person, but you want the relationship to be over.
But in a god damn Email, you just send a message, with no feelings what so ever. That was it. It was over. The end. Zippo.
I fucking cried my ass off after reading the message. My mom comforted me. And that's when my heart began to turn into a refrigerator.
The next day, I never said a word. At all. At work, I had to talk, I didn't mind that. My two best friends came to visit me, and I told them about what happened, and they comforted me as well.
From this day forward, my depression has gotten worse. I will never get a lover, and I will never see happiness in the future. My heart turned into Antarctica, where the penguins, my favorite animal live. I don't care about anything anymore. I don't care about who's president, or if I'm going to turn homeless.
The only way to cure me, is to find the love of my life, which will never happen at all. I'm not special. I'm not popular. None of the other people in my grade notices me. And when I get my diploma...
After senior year, I have to be in school for 2 more years, because in 9 - 11, I never took a Science. From 10 - 11, I never took a history. Senior year, I have no clue what's going on, so bull shit.
~sighs~ Even if I get my diploma, I'll never be good for College. I want to go to college to learn more about music...but I always think to myself that my voice is terrible.
i'm actually crying while typing this. excuse me...
