You can get through it man

lying in bed making wounded animal noises

There is only two choices. Seek profesional help and get some nice drugs to help you or suck it up strap on your boots and get moving doing anything that will make you buisy. I deal with depression but i keep myself moving and buisy it helps alot. I dont want to move but i do. Why? Because if i dont, any and all alternatives are not helpful or useful. You can do this man get yourself moving and bring yourself back from the dark pit that you have fallen in.

Mmm, I know. Got therapy from the student services at uni and it helped A BIT, also keeping busy, getting out, being social etc, but sometimes it just comes right back, ugh...

You will get there. I struggled for years untill i realised i had to make a change i changed my carreer took the first girl i could find as a girlfriend bought a new car started getting rid of all the things that were wieghing me down. This made me happy all it took was the insight to find what things were helping to bring me down and changing them. You will be allright Man i know you can bring it around and find what makes you happy

I'll chime in on keeping yourself preoccupied. Personally I have major aversion to anti-depressants and similar, and it keeps me backing out of treatment, so I've been dealing with it that way. This is just a personal skepticism though, I dont mean to dissuade from it. It can be hard at times, but then you vent. Make art. Funnel it somehow. Other voices will help keep you going too.

Not something I know if i can recommend, but personally in the past when things have gotten so bad, I've not been able to move, I've come to think of it as self-destructive behaviour and suicide by inaction. Ive used that, to get me out. Use your loved ones as leverage against yourself. I found guilt surprisingly enabling, and not crippling.

Bah, I dont know if I'm helping or what I am doing.. Just say so if you would like to talk.