Was actually looking forward to christmas this year, but now.. i managed to piss off my real mom, who i only just got in contact with about 1 or 2 months ago. She feels that i dont wanna connect with her, which isnt true... but now im basicly losing my mom and my little sister right before christmas. it just has me feeling really down and depressed. I mean, dont get me wrong. I know that there are people who have it way worse coming up on the holidays,but this just really killed christmas for me...