Well, I'm in a rotten mood now really, and I have been taking it out on some friends unjustly, but this is the only place I can say it explicitly without the person this is about reading it...

Well, A while ago I had a crush on someone for a while, finally got the courage to ask them out and got rejected, so I spent some time with other friends to overcome this and at some point came intimate with someone else, we both knew not to take it that way but I must say that was an intercourse I never had like before, and it was amazing for me.
argh, I'm rumbling again, anyway, we both knew not to take it as more then a one night stand, but I slowly became more and more attracted to that person, but I know that she had a crush on one of my other friends who is currently in a relationship with another friend who doesn't have the courage to break up with them (and justifies it with lack of time). If you followed this on the first read congrats.
Yesterday we had a conversation, and since I'm a good friend of my crush's crush and their partner she asked me what is the situation between them, long story short, she told me she realised that she really does have feelings for that friend, the type that you can't just wait out a bit and it'll pass.

Now that came as a kind of stab, because I was holding out and waiting for them to get over that crush so I could make my own move...but guess thats not really gonna work it seems, and now I am frustrated and annoyed and basically just wanna stab someone repeatedly.


Lastly, yes Green, I know you can read this, I don't mind you reading it but please keep it to yourself.

Have a "jolly" christmas or whatever the hell you're celebrating.

~bluespear