In continuation to the last journal that nobody reads, I seem to be able to build a cast around myself as well, I've mended myself, but I still feel down in the general feel, I put a good positive show, but in reality it is what it is - a show, a masquerade, another mask I wear in my everyday life and another stab at myself.

I've all but given up on some parts of the social norm, and it saddens me to admit so... Will I have the courage to make a move against someone much more stable than me? will it even work? I have many doubts that only time will reveal the answer to...time and courage.