so apparently when my dad doesnt get any sleep at night, he vents his anger with words towards my mom and me. he doesnt hit us, but he just yells and it makes me feel unprotected. he tells me i should stand up for myself but when i do to him, he yells at me even when i disagree with him. him and i havent seen eye to eye with each other since he came back from germany and that was when i was in 4th grade and i am a sophmore in college. if anyone feels like crying, its me. this, being unemployed, and school is putting too much pressure on me and i cant handle the pressure anymore. i havent felt like this in a long time. last time i felt like this, i was being bullied and was thinking the unthinkable and i think you can guess on what the unthinkable is. i was considering suicide because i didnt feel protected and now i am under too much pressure that i cant even control my emotions. i hate this feeling and i cant make it go away. idk why my dad thinks he has to vent his anger at mom and me, but i am tired of it and is seriously hoping she divorces him. i cant have this pressure on me because i am trying to succeed in life but this pressure is making it impossible.