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My dad can go and shove it.
13 years ago
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Firstly I must apologise now because this post will have lots of bad language in it.
My dad shouted at me this morning after the downstairs toilet flooded (again). His argument was it was my fault because I am the one who uses all of the toilet paper and "blocks up the toilet".
Well as a kid, yes guilty as charged. Now though, if i need to use more, I always use as little as possible and flush to prevent blockage. Based on my acts as a child you want to call me out and try and shift all the fucking blame on me, well go fuck yourself.
Perhaps if you didn't move into a house which needed repairing (including the plumbing as this has happened before) and taken the fucking cheap option rather than spend a little bit more money on a house that needed no renovations then maybe this problem wouldn't occur. Instead you do what you like to do best and that is find a scapegoat and not admit you are a fucking cheapskate (which he calls me all of the time because I like to have some money in my bank account.) You get my rent of me and yet you always tell me I shouldn't be so tight with money. Get the fuck over yourself.
So after calming down and helping my mum with some chores, he comes into the kitchen, acting like nothing has happened and I am his best mate again. Then, he goes on about my diapers and my life.
I went to see some mental heath people a few weeks ago who said I had no mental problems and that my AB side was fine and a stress reliever that shouldn't be taken away. Most of the stress comes from him. Well he didn't like that, so now I have until February to stop wearing Diapers or he will through them out. HOW FUCKING DARE YOU! Just because I was honest, you want to take the one thing away from me that caused me to relax, well fine, but get this, If I kill myself (and there is a good chance I will, I have attempted before) then it will be on your head ass-hole.
Then he moans about my job. I only work part time and have applied for new jobs with limited success, then get this.
HE DOESN'T WANT ME TO SEE MY BOYFRIEND!!!
Now, I have gone through a plan with him before. I said I would look for work and I will be going to do a part time course at a college. In the mean time, I will see my boyfriend and once that is done, then I will get into it and work and study.
BUT NO, YOU THINK YOU KNOW ME BETTER THAN I KNOW MYSELF. WELL FUCK YOU DAD, NO ONE FUCKING KNOWS ME BETTER THAN FUCKING ME. YOU GOT THAT! I HAVE BEEN DEPRESSED FOR THE LAST 4 YEARS....I HAVE MET THE PERFECT MAN IN MY LIFE WHO HAS GIVEN ME A NEW SENSE ON LIFE AND YET, YOU WOULD RATHER SEE ME SUFFER IN MISERY BECAUSE YOU THINK YOU KNOW ME BETTER.
WELL, I AM GOING TO LEARN TO BE A BARTENDER, AND IN THE FUTURE, I WILL OPEN A BAR AND BE SUCCESSFUL, HOW ABOUT THAT ASS-HOLE.
I'm sorry but I really needed to vent guys. I just.......feel so betrayed right now. My mum seems to know that I am upset right now and without the support of her, my boyfriend and others, I really think this would have been the end for me.
If you think I am over reacting then that is your opinion. This is just the way I feel right now and I am sick and tired of being told what I should do with my life, IM FUCKING 21 YEARS OLD.
I'll see what happens next but this isn't over by a long shot.
My dad shouted at me this morning after the downstairs toilet flooded (again). His argument was it was my fault because I am the one who uses all of the toilet paper and "blocks up the toilet".
Well as a kid, yes guilty as charged. Now though, if i need to use more, I always use as little as possible and flush to prevent blockage. Based on my acts as a child you want to call me out and try and shift all the fucking blame on me, well go fuck yourself.
Perhaps if you didn't move into a house which needed repairing (including the plumbing as this has happened before) and taken the fucking cheap option rather than spend a little bit more money on a house that needed no renovations then maybe this problem wouldn't occur. Instead you do what you like to do best and that is find a scapegoat and not admit you are a fucking cheapskate (which he calls me all of the time because I like to have some money in my bank account.) You get my rent of me and yet you always tell me I shouldn't be so tight with money. Get the fuck over yourself.
So after calming down and helping my mum with some chores, he comes into the kitchen, acting like nothing has happened and I am his best mate again. Then, he goes on about my diapers and my life.
I went to see some mental heath people a few weeks ago who said I had no mental problems and that my AB side was fine and a stress reliever that shouldn't be taken away. Most of the stress comes from him. Well he didn't like that, so now I have until February to stop wearing Diapers or he will through them out. HOW FUCKING DARE YOU! Just because I was honest, you want to take the one thing away from me that caused me to relax, well fine, but get this, If I kill myself (and there is a good chance I will, I have attempted before) then it will be on your head ass-hole.
Then he moans about my job. I only work part time and have applied for new jobs with limited success, then get this.
HE DOESN'T WANT ME TO SEE MY BOYFRIEND!!!
Now, I have gone through a plan with him before. I said I would look for work and I will be going to do a part time course at a college. In the mean time, I will see my boyfriend and once that is done, then I will get into it and work and study.
BUT NO, YOU THINK YOU KNOW ME BETTER THAN I KNOW MYSELF. WELL FUCK YOU DAD, NO ONE FUCKING KNOWS ME BETTER THAN FUCKING ME. YOU GOT THAT! I HAVE BEEN DEPRESSED FOR THE LAST 4 YEARS....I HAVE MET THE PERFECT MAN IN MY LIFE WHO HAS GIVEN ME A NEW SENSE ON LIFE AND YET, YOU WOULD RATHER SEE ME SUFFER IN MISERY BECAUSE YOU THINK YOU KNOW ME BETTER.
WELL, I AM GOING TO LEARN TO BE A BARTENDER, AND IN THE FUTURE, I WILL OPEN A BAR AND BE SUCCESSFUL, HOW ABOUT THAT ASS-HOLE.
I'm sorry but I really needed to vent guys. I just.......feel so betrayed right now. My mum seems to know that I am upset right now and without the support of her, my boyfriend and others, I really think this would have been the end for me.
If you think I am over reacting then that is your opinion. This is just the way I feel right now and I am sick and tired of being told what I should do with my life, IM FUCKING 21 YEARS OLD.
I'll see what happens next but this isn't over by a long shot.
In a few years we'll be together and he won't be able to say shit about it.
And thanks snuggle butt, that's the only thing keeping me going right now :) I love you so much :)