Why am I sending people Apologatory messages, for those who were wondering?

Well, I've felt I've been more then unsavoury with what I've been given to get at least a little bit better, and learning that my family heavily dislikes those that become really big into the various arts really did hit where it hurt.

So I thought it would ne nice to get the feeling of shame off my chest before taking another crack at it, despite the circumstances. For now, though, I feel that I shouldn't need let others worry about a problem of my own.