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Long but needed explanation!
12 years ago
Just logged in for the first time in a long time!
I haven't read or looked at any messages or comments yet, just wanted to write a journal to let y'all know I'm here-
Without going into detail, my depression resurfaced worse than ever and I have sought help in therapy for this reason. I had been embarrased to seek help from therapists previously.
Anywho!-
COMMISSIONS- One of the therapists I met with suggested that the reason my depression has been spiking is because I had lost my most precious weapon against it- art. Not just any art, but the personal art that comes from my soul, my creations, my ideas. Her theory was that doing too much commission work and not enough personal work (10 to 1 ratio) was actually harming me, crazy right? Well she convinced me to try out her suggestion to see if I have any improvement- so I am!
So heres whats happening with that-
All of my commissioners that have already paid fully or partially for their commissions will have their commissions finished! Unless of course they want a refund- therefor I will give you one! All other commissions I must drop- I apologize for this greatly and hope you are all understanding. I did not want to do this but at the request of a professional I am seeking help from she deems it necessary. Many of my commissioners are dear friends and I am sorry to disappoint you like this!
I just hope you'll all be understanding, as this is very hard for me to say. Im trying to correct my mistakes and be responsible- mistakes caused by my 'illness' that I am trying very hard to overcome!
TRADES! I will be completing ALL of my trades! Many of you have already finished your beautiful halves of trades and I will give you the best I can give in return. I only hope you can continue to be patient with me friends-
CONTEST-
I will be happy to hand out prizes now, without the burden of commissions I will have time to do this and more contests in the future with the free time I will have- QUESTION- Would you all like me to pick winners myself or would you still like to vote?
Im not sure what else to mention right now- besides I am getting better! And without the burden of so many commissions I can start my road to 'healing artwork' like my therapist had suggested. I really hope this all works out because I want to feel better!
Ill be back as soon as I can to start getting in touch with people individually- thank you! -Mary
I haven't read or looked at any messages or comments yet, just wanted to write a journal to let y'all know I'm here-
Without going into detail, my depression resurfaced worse than ever and I have sought help in therapy for this reason. I had been embarrased to seek help from therapists previously.
Anywho!-
COMMISSIONS- One of the therapists I met with suggested that the reason my depression has been spiking is because I had lost my most precious weapon against it- art. Not just any art, but the personal art that comes from my soul, my creations, my ideas. Her theory was that doing too much commission work and not enough personal work (10 to 1 ratio) was actually harming me, crazy right? Well she convinced me to try out her suggestion to see if I have any improvement- so I am!
So heres whats happening with that-
All of my commissioners that have already paid fully or partially for their commissions will have their commissions finished! Unless of course they want a refund- therefor I will give you one! All other commissions I must drop- I apologize for this greatly and hope you are all understanding. I did not want to do this but at the request of a professional I am seeking help from she deems it necessary. Many of my commissioners are dear friends and I am sorry to disappoint you like this!
I just hope you'll all be understanding, as this is very hard for me to say. Im trying to correct my mistakes and be responsible- mistakes caused by my 'illness' that I am trying very hard to overcome!
TRADES! I will be completing ALL of my trades! Many of you have already finished your beautiful halves of trades and I will give you the best I can give in return. I only hope you can continue to be patient with me friends-
CONTEST-
I will be happy to hand out prizes now, without the burden of commissions I will have time to do this and more contests in the future with the free time I will have- QUESTION- Would you all like me to pick winners myself or would you still like to vote?
Im not sure what else to mention right now- besides I am getting better! And without the burden of so many commissions I can start my road to 'healing artwork' like my therapist had suggested. I really hope this all works out because I want to feel better!
Ill be back as soon as I can to start getting in touch with people individually- thank you! -Mary
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Anyway, glad to see you're here! :D And I'm glad you took the time to sort out your health and well-being - it's more important. :3
I feel like I got hit by a car! I almost wish I did at some points- it might be easier to recover from!
It feels so good to be getting better and I feel terrible for being away I hope you can forgive me I was terrified that you were angry at me especially since Crow was almost done when I disappeared >_< he actually was done but his legs were a big wobly so I took the fur off and sautered them for extra strength! I wanted to have resewn his legs before I came back but I was just so down. But since Im feeling better I can have him all sewn up :) I just hope you can be patient with me for a little while longer!
Great to be back though, when I can actually get to my computer I hope to start straightening all of this mess out! I have so many comments and notes holy shit *babble babble*
ANYWAYS: <3
But hey, don't overwork yourself! Start slow, don't let things pile up because big piles fall on an artist. o-o I'm just glad to see you around again! ^^
Good for you in getting professional help though. It worked wonders for me, so I'm sure it will for you too.
Great timing too! It's a brand new year!
Well, good luck. ^.^
Also, yay for getting help for depression! Never be embarrassed about it, hon, there's no need. Depression is a medical condition just like any other; it would be silly to be embarrassed about getting a broken arm or something like that treated, wouldn't it? You're doing something about it. That's awesome! Kick its ass!
Art is a big help with mine too ^_^ and I don't do enough either (I'm not getting any other treatment right now because I don't have insurance >.<) so I'm trying to do at least one piece of art outside of class per week for the whole year.
*Gives big hug*
Im sorry about the depression. I get that way too. Sux.
But hey at least you have a plan to help yourself out ^.^
Silver linings right.
Kinda bumd about the commissions since i have even sent you anything about what we were talking about for a Draky, but im patient. Health of others is more important.
Im just super glad to see that you are fine and not... Well... Dead o.0 I tend to think the worst at times and i hate it. But i haz a uber happy to know that Mary is back and is still with us. Yay... Unless....
O.O My god!!!
YOUR A ZOMBIE!!! ZOMBIES ARE STARTING TO RETAIN THEIR INTEELIGENCE. WERE ALL DOOMED!!!
XD Couldnt resist.
*Another hug*
You get well soon Mary!!!