I don't know what to do anymore. I am sick in bed right now from a disease that nearly killed me last time. Last time, I was sick with whatever this is for 7 days and I couldn't get up to eat and sometimes to go to the bathroom. I was crawling everywhere because it was too painful to stand all the way up. Since my depression has been increasing. I didn't eat and didn't sleep because my body did't let me sometimes and I didn't feel hungry.I didn't have any of my freneds' phone numbers and they turned up on day 7 and nursed me back to health. I don't want this to become common. I think my depression has something to do with it and I probably should go seek professional help. But I keep getting visions of a really hazy time in my life plus I had some really bad drugs used on me at one facility. I don't trust them very well and I don't want to go back... I dunno what to do. Please help me if you can.