what the hell is wrong with things lately? my mom is being a super bitch over the littlest shit. she's been calling me stupid, dumb, a bictch, selfish, and a no it all... that's only today. gawd why the hell does she get to be whatever she wants while i can only be the nice, unopinated little idiot she wants. all i want is for her try not to constantly complain and bitch about every little thing that she thinks is not just right! DAMMIT! all i want is to be myself without her thinking i'm plotting to ruin her fucking life.

sorry for the rant. i just... i just can't wait to get the hell out of this house. i want to not look at her and think think "go to hell". i'd to have a better relationship with her but i don't see that in the near future. shit. God i hope things get better