For the past few days: I’ve had sharp abdominal pain, nausea, headaches, minor dizziness, on and off pain in my right side groin, and just miserable in general. Can’t wait for friday to get here so I can go to the clinic.

I never stops. It never fuckin' stops. There's ALWAYS something going on with me health-wise. Granted it's not deadly, but it's most definitely debilitating. I've missed countless days of school and work over the past 7 years because I couldn't physically get out of bed.

I just want it all to go away. I don't want to be scared to be out somewhere I don't know well or with few restrooms or without my own transportation to leave if the need comes up. I don't want to be scared that I'll faint either while driving or when I'm alone. I don't want to be told again that there's "nothing they can do" and that I just need to learn to "deal with it".

I just can't do this anymore.