I don't usally write personal stuff in my journals, but I just want to get out with this in some way, beacuase I don't really have others to turn to.
I have been kinda down lately, thoughts are spreading like ripples in the water and I kinda feel like I have swallowed a big rock, which now lies deep in my stomach, unable to escape. My brain is constantly overworking and I just cant turn it off. Sometimes it even disturbs my sleep and I am unable to focus proberly on everyday things like work, drawing, meetings ect. I even skip a few bus stops, because I am complely engrossed in my thoughts. I will be seeing a psychologist next month as soon as I get my salary and see if she can help me somehow. I haven't really been seeing a psychologist before, not since I got diagnosed AS 12 years ago. So I'm a little nervous about it.

Just to get one thing straight. It is not suicidle thoughts and I don't hurt myself in any way, my mind is just overworking.