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Musing on Envy
13 years ago
Warning! Word dump imminent!
Has anyone noticed that they feel as if they deserve things? Like they are entitled to great, or perhaps just many things? Well, I've felt that way before, like I wanted to see a dear friend naked even though they were in a relationship, or maybe wanting to yiff people outside my current relationship.... Don't get me wrong, most of that is in the past and under control. I'm just admitting to the feelings. Now, this idea has been floating around inside my head for the past week, a way of convincing myself that I'm satisfied despite my libido's idiocy.
We all know the saying about the grass being greener on the otherside and all those proverbs about not coveting what we don't have and enjoying what is actually ours... Anyway, I started thinking about it like this: All the treasures of the world are not mine to have, nor the wonders of the deep sea or far out space. My wonders are those close to me, the ones I can embrace. There are many fantastic things in the world, be it valuable monetarily or emotionally. But, not all of these belong to one person, no one deserves to have them all no matter how gosh dang perfect or whatever they are. Every person has their treasures and they should give them their full attention.... Focus on what you have and not some errant whim because in chasing that fleeting desire you might leave behind those things that truly matter, like a loved one or a wonderful place. For instance, I used to think the town I grew up in was too small, that it was stifling me, suffocating me with its separation from more highly modern places. But in truth, these days I can't even imagine living anywhere else, big cities scare me a little, there are just too many people. I was growing restless and discontented with my position in life, but in reality I wouldn't want to be anywhere else. So, what's familiar might seem stale at times, but that doesn't mean it's any less important or integral to our lives. What I'm trying to get at is simply, if you're losing interest in your mate, or becoming dissatisfied with your hometown, it doesn't always mean you have to move on... Maybe it just means that a reaffirmation of all you love about that place or person is needed.
Not sure if this is going to be helpful or mindblowing to anyone, just really wanted to get it out of my head.
Stay safe everyone.
Has anyone noticed that they feel as if they deserve things? Like they are entitled to great, or perhaps just many things? Well, I've felt that way before, like I wanted to see a dear friend naked even though they were in a relationship, or maybe wanting to yiff people outside my current relationship.... Don't get me wrong, most of that is in the past and under control. I'm just admitting to the feelings. Now, this idea has been floating around inside my head for the past week, a way of convincing myself that I'm satisfied despite my libido's idiocy.
We all know the saying about the grass being greener on the otherside and all those proverbs about not coveting what we don't have and enjoying what is actually ours... Anyway, I started thinking about it like this: All the treasures of the world are not mine to have, nor the wonders of the deep sea or far out space. My wonders are those close to me, the ones I can embrace. There are many fantastic things in the world, be it valuable monetarily or emotionally. But, not all of these belong to one person, no one deserves to have them all no matter how gosh dang perfect or whatever they are. Every person has their treasures and they should give them their full attention.... Focus on what you have and not some errant whim because in chasing that fleeting desire you might leave behind those things that truly matter, like a loved one or a wonderful place. For instance, I used to think the town I grew up in was too small, that it was stifling me, suffocating me with its separation from more highly modern places. But in truth, these days I can't even imagine living anywhere else, big cities scare me a little, there are just too many people. I was growing restless and discontented with my position in life, but in reality I wouldn't want to be anywhere else. So, what's familiar might seem stale at times, but that doesn't mean it's any less important or integral to our lives. What I'm trying to get at is simply, if you're losing interest in your mate, or becoming dissatisfied with your hometown, it doesn't always mean you have to move on... Maybe it just means that a reaffirmation of all you love about that place or person is needed.
Not sure if this is going to be helpful or mindblowing to anyone, just really wanted to get it out of my head.
Stay safe everyone.
I'm not settling in any way. ^^ I have super fantastic friends and a mate who's ten times cooler than me. x33 If anything Kaabii is settling for me rather than the other way around. xD