so me and my bf are breaking up, he dated me for 4 months. He always told me he loved me but really all he wanted was sex... i loved him and gave him my heart and all he wanted was sex... its really sad and i cried alot about it. I tried my hardest to make him happy and i succeeded for a bit but in the end he was a stupid selfish human. all he cared about was himself, like most people really... i am ashamed to think i was born a human... there was one thing he taught me though. I spend most my time trying my hardest to make people happy and i am just miserable and angry inside but i keep quiet because i want others to be happy. he taught me that i should start thinking of myself more instead of suffering in silence and spending all my time making others happy while i just hide and keep quiet. But in the end he wasn't the one for me i guess. i want a man who will love me for who i am not for my big boobs and butt >.< who doesn't yell at me when im being difficult, because i will always BE difficult. I am OCD, Bipolar, and i have Anxiety disorder, major paranoia, split personality disorder, and am autistic to a small degree. I don't get along well with others and i act like a child allot. But if you cant take me at my worst you don't deserve my best. I love my diapers and dipping my paci in spongebob mac n cheese, But i also like smoking weed and watching scary movies. I am the Extremes of two worlds and i wont change for anyone. One day maybe a man will see this and start to like what i like and actually be the man i want and will love for the rest of my life.